Food Funeral gone bad...

My food funeral yesterday went awry...I am ashamed. I said to myself, I've been doing OK with my eating, so if this is my last day eating full portions, why not go all the way?  Bad mistake.  Bad, bad mistake.  It started off innocently enough...I had turkey on a sandwich thin and coffee for breakfast.  Lunch...well, I figured I'd go by my favorite soul food place for the last time and have my favorites: Baked chicken, mac & cheese, candied yams, collard greens followed by ½ slice of lemon cake. Yeah…it was a massacre. So my friends that I have told about the surgery said they would take me out to dinner, so I chose Carabbas…I was still kind of full off of lunch 6 hours earlier, but I knew it would be my last time in a long time…so it started off with pitcher of Sangria, an entire loaf of bread dipped in olive oil,  lasagna, and it ended me crying into some Tiramisu and drunkenly singing "It's so hard to say goodbye". I don’t know what I was thinking…I am paying for it today. I don’t even want the liquids I can have..I could barely get down my protein shake this morning and I’m popping Tums like candy. Warning to all who are starting liquids or really at any stage of pre-op…don’t do this!!!

Lol don't be ashamed a lot of us did the same at least me but my funeral lasted a week,Now sister that is buried and gone get down to it ,I will be waitting on the loser bench for you

Man I wanna be where you are!!! Hopefully soon I will be!! 

It's happened to the best of us.  My food funeral was Thanksgiving I had a BALL for that Thursday, Friday and Saturday, Sunday was my preop day.

Ms Shell

Thanks for the encouragement guys, I was starting to think I was the only one who pigged out right before!!! Liquids are going well today though!!

 I felt a compulsion to eat everything in site!!! But I made a whole ceremony of it... I had fried chicken and green fried tomatoes.. but i couldnt stop eating the week b4 my liquid diet...it was awful...i gained 8 lbs, i regret it, but we all go through it... i think its fear. but dont let it get you down- just change, right now, change it and dont ever let it get the best of you now. plus its done, there is no changing the past only the future.
Best of luck!!!

Forgive yourself! It's not where you are it's where you're going!  You'll be free from all of that food torture soon. Good luck!!

i'd say im jealous, but i have made those mistakes pre-op and if there is one thing i do not miss now that i am sleeved- its the horrible feeling after eating like a pig (no offense, but that is exactly what i use to do.. ate ate and ate until me ears were abt to fall off..)

you'll be on the losers bench soon enough and all of this will be a mystery..

Good to hear, I hope I don't miss it either!! I never ate like that often, but this feeling I have right now is awful.  I will probably remember this feeling more than the food when I look back on this 6 months from now....I hope!!!!

For what I thought was my last real meal, we went for Mexican food.  My surgery was cancelled in the OR, with me waking up not having had it (a long story, but it all worked out in the end), so for the 1st week after this failed attempt, I had Chinese, Mexican, desserts, etc.  Then I realized I should go back on the pre-op because I didn't know when the surgery would actually be.  It ended up happening 3 weeks after the first try, so it worked out.  We all have to say good-bye to food.  Some of us say good bye with a whimper, some with a crescendo, and some in-between.  It's a right of passage into our new lives.  Let go and move forward.  You're going to do great!!!!