Getting a little nervous
In the last 4 months, I have not resorted to eating in times of stress. I have not tried to find comfort through my favorite foods. But I got a little freaked out - this last week I had no appetite what so ever (very rare for me) and it was hard for me to eat enough. I realized that I was eating my meals as a way to distract myself from thinking about all my stress and issues. I didnt eat anything good - just my normal 2 oz of dense proteins, and i wasnt snacking, but I just felt a little weird about "when" i was eating. I didnt really get any comfort from my food, no endorphine rush, and I needed to eat, but I still feel a little uneasy about it. I know at this point it's probably nothing to worry about, I just cant shake the feeling that this is the first crack.
I know that in the rare times I have no appetite i need to be a little more structured with my eating just for health's sake so I can get my protein in for the day, but also to avoid this. Fortunately, 90% of the time, I am on a decent schedule so I dont have to worry about this.
Just a reminder to myself to be a little more aware. The difference between now and 16 months ago is my "all or nothing" attitude has changed. I no longer feel like im doomed with one little mis-step along the way. I'm still going strong :)
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 
85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
Either way, I think you've had a major victory by not turning to bad foods so it's worth celebrating! If it still truly worries you, then the awareness you mentioned is probably a good idea.
Keep on keeping on!
5'5" Goal reached, but fighting regain. Back to Basics.
Start Weight 246 Goal Weight 160 Current Weight 183
Starting size: 22, 2x
Current size: 12, L
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
I stopped keeping trigger foods in the house, and now I don't keep any snacky or easy, convenient foods in my house. If I really want to eat, I have to cook or prepare it. Makes me think twice about why I'm eating.
www.sexyskinnybitch.wordpress.com - my journey to sexy skinny bitch status
11/16/12 - Got my Body by Sauceda - arms, Bl/BA, LBL, thigh lift.
HW 420/ SW 335 /CW 200 85 lbs lost pre-op / 135 post op
~~~~Alison~~~~~
I totally get what you said about "the first crack." In the past I'de hit the first crack then it snowballed into something uncontrollable. But now its different. Now I feel empowered and know that I can do this. I will get there. Goal is definitely in the future.
Keep Rocking the Sleeve
Take Care
Kristen
Thank you for sharing, I can relate. Keep working through what comes up for you.
Oh and if your not eating.... good for you.... because one day it just may return.
Keep it low and you will succeed as your are. I admire your recovery.
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"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
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