i am having anxiety about this surgery!!
Thank u so much for the kind remarks and encouragement... as for usaf wife if i do decide not to do the surgery DOES NOT mean I WILL cont to eat and gain more and more weight and to be misearable AND AS U SAY FAT for the rest of my life... i do not need those kind of NEGATIVE REMARKS... i am going to do my lab work and see my surgeon tommorow and talk with him ...thanks again everyone...
my question is what is going to keep you from continuing to eat and staying fat or getting fatter? If you are like me,whatever you have done in the past has not worked,*long term* and that is the real issue.
We have all been down that road and we have landed at WLS doorstep.
Do you have diabetes? If not, your chances of developing it are very good. Are you more prepared to lose your legs an inch at a time from diabetes? Lose your eyesight and burn your kidneys out from diabetes? The thought of these things (and I was already Type II diabetic) scared me WAY more than the preop diet or the thought of surgery.
It is,of course,your choice. I just hate to see you back out now and a year or two down the road be right back where you started from,maybe heavier and less healthy than you are now,when you could have been spending the time getting thinner and more healthy than you every thought for.
Good luck on your decision. Put your big girl panties on and don't let the demon of head hunger allow you to make uneducated choices about your life and health. It is way too important.
Good luck aand keep us posted.
By the way the first few days of the preop diet are the worst. The farther you go into it the less trouble you will have. You are detoxing from sugar and carbs and that is really hard. Hang in there. we got your back.
Holly
We have all been down that road and we have landed at WLS doorstep.
Do you have diabetes? If not, your chances of developing it are very good. Are you more prepared to lose your legs an inch at a time from diabetes? Lose your eyesight and burn your kidneys out from diabetes? The thought of these things (and I was already Type II diabetic) scared me WAY more than the preop diet or the thought of surgery.
It is,of course,your choice. I just hate to see you back out now and a year or two down the road be right back where you started from,maybe heavier and less healthy than you are now,when you could have been spending the time getting thinner and more healthy than you every thought for.
Good luck on your decision. Put your big girl panties on and don't let the demon of head hunger allow you to make uneducated choices about your life and health. It is way too important.
Good luck aand keep us posted.
By the way the first few days of the preop diet are the worst. The farther you go into it the less trouble you will have. You are detoxing from sugar and carbs and that is really hard. Hang in there. we got your back.
Holly
Surgery is scary but the other side is so much better!.
Once you are over the surgery and first few weeks of getting healed and adjusted you will not believe how much better you feel. I NEVER would've lost this much weight so soon on my own.
I didn't have anxiety but many others do, everyone comes out saying that they wished that they had done this sooner. Good luck with your decision.
Once you are over the surgery and first few weeks of getting healed and adjusted you will not believe how much better you feel. I NEVER would've lost this much weight so soon on my own.
I didn't have anxiety but many others do, everyone comes out saying that they wished that they had done this sooner. Good luck with your decision.
VSG 6/10/2011 Dr. Ann Lidor BMore MD 5'5 HW-247 SW-233 GW-145 CW-120
http://www.youtube.com/user/72Crabadams Me rambling about my journey : )
http://www.youtube.com/user/72Crabadams Me rambling about my journey : )
The two weeks before surgery is tough - I just wanted to wish you peace and will say a prayer for you too - whatever you decide.
What helped me get through the anxiety was to focus on the future and my goals & what being 324 lbs meant and how much it limited me from the life I truly wanted to have. Even simple things, like lying down and feeling the weight come on my chest and neck, like choking me - I couldn't take it anymore. Getting in and out of the car, going to concerts or any social activities - checking out the chairs to see if it would hold my weight... I could go on and on.
It's not a quick easy fix, but it has been soooo worth it to me. I still have a long way to go, but I FEEL like I can be me again, even where I am right now, I have no limitations. And sleeping is AWESOME again - no cpap or feeling the weight on me! :)
Praying for peace of mind and the ability to walk through the fear! :)
What helped me get through the anxiety was to focus on the future and my goals & what being 324 lbs meant and how much it limited me from the life I truly wanted to have. Even simple things, like lying down and feeling the weight come on my chest and neck, like choking me - I couldn't take it anymore. Getting in and out of the car, going to concerts or any social activities - checking out the chairs to see if it would hold my weight... I could go on and on.
It's not a quick easy fix, but it has been soooo worth it to me. I still have a long way to go, but I FEEL like I can be me again, even where I am right now, I have no limitations. And sleeping is AWESOME again - no cpap or feeling the weight on me! :)
Praying for peace of mind and the ability to walk through the fear! :)
HW 355/ Pre-Liquid Diet 324/DOS 311/Current 212/Goal 140
reading your response gave me a nice lol... i can def relate to struggling to get out the car lol.. getting out of the chair looking back to make sure u didnt take it with u lol...those are the things i need to hear to keep me on track and to remind me why i thought of getting the surgery in the first place... thanks
Precious_Diamond,
I know exactly what you are feeling. As I mentioned yesterday in one of your posts, I started mine about a week and a half ago. Literally the first 3 days or so are the worst of the whole process. Not only do you have habits of eating at certain times or snacking when you want that you can no longer do, you also have the sudden lack of solid food for much of the day to deal with. I had headaches while going through sugar withdrawls and stomach aches of not having food in there most of the time. I also felt a lot of nausea for several days when my stomach was feeling empty.
I have adjusted my pre op diet slightly in this way: I am allowed 3 protein shakes with 1/4 cup berries blended in, 1 snack (apple,bannana etc) and 1 small salad. I took the berries out of the shakes and eat them as smaller snacks through the day to even out everything. I also had to watch my blood sugar and I'm now off all but one pill and my nightly dose of insulin has been halved and is now only used when my BS is above 90 at night. So I'm already seeing a difference in my health there. I was told last year (at 33 years old) by my cardiologist that he would be suprised if I was still alive in 5-10 years. That is what, out of everything else that is wrong with me due to weight, finally convinced me I had to do something. I don't know your reasons, but I would hope you would consider them when you make your decision. Don't let a moment of fear derail you from something that is more important to you. When I started my diet, that is the actual moment I said "Oh crud, this is happening." and it was a scary moment, because up till then it had always been, "when I get scheduled and when I have it" no it is "I am about to have it". That's scary when you think about it.
My suggestion would be to talk to your Dr. and tell him about your nerves. But stay on the diet as long as you can, remember you can cancel anytime before your actual surgery. Let yourself have some time to absorb the idea and let your body get used to the diet. You are being hit with the reality of the situation as well as the mourning of the food you have normally had and your body is suddenly finding itself not getting the input it normally got and is trying to tell you something is wrong, all at the same time, and that is a lot to deal with. You can do this, you just have to believe you can. It's perfectly normal to have doubts and fears, but it is the strong person who can overcome those fears and do what is best for themselves and their family. I don't doubt you are a strong person, just look at your screen name, precious_diamond, you chose a name that appears to tell how you feel about yourself, unlike mine which is just a name to hide behind.
It is ultimatly your decision, and everyone on the boards here will support you with whatever decision you come to. Surgery is not right for everyone and we all know that. Please don't feel that I'm trying to talk you into surgery. I just want to make sure you are not talking yourself out of it for the wrong reasons. Either way, we'll be here for you. You can count on that.
Jete
I know exactly what you are feeling. As I mentioned yesterday in one of your posts, I started mine about a week and a half ago. Literally the first 3 days or so are the worst of the whole process. Not only do you have habits of eating at certain times or snacking when you want that you can no longer do, you also have the sudden lack of solid food for much of the day to deal with. I had headaches while going through sugar withdrawls and stomach aches of not having food in there most of the time. I also felt a lot of nausea for several days when my stomach was feeling empty.
I have adjusted my pre op diet slightly in this way: I am allowed 3 protein shakes with 1/4 cup berries blended in, 1 snack (apple,bannana etc) and 1 small salad. I took the berries out of the shakes and eat them as smaller snacks through the day to even out everything. I also had to watch my blood sugar and I'm now off all but one pill and my nightly dose of insulin has been halved and is now only used when my BS is above 90 at night. So I'm already seeing a difference in my health there. I was told last year (at 33 years old) by my cardiologist that he would be suprised if I was still alive in 5-10 years. That is what, out of everything else that is wrong with me due to weight, finally convinced me I had to do something. I don't know your reasons, but I would hope you would consider them when you make your decision. Don't let a moment of fear derail you from something that is more important to you. When I started my diet, that is the actual moment I said "Oh crud, this is happening." and it was a scary moment, because up till then it had always been, "when I get scheduled and when I have it" no it is "I am about to have it". That's scary when you think about it.
My suggestion would be to talk to your Dr. and tell him about your nerves. But stay on the diet as long as you can, remember you can cancel anytime before your actual surgery. Let yourself have some time to absorb the idea and let your body get used to the diet. You are being hit with the reality of the situation as well as the mourning of the food you have normally had and your body is suddenly finding itself not getting the input it normally got and is trying to tell you something is wrong, all at the same time, and that is a lot to deal with. You can do this, you just have to believe you can. It's perfectly normal to have doubts and fears, but it is the strong person who can overcome those fears and do what is best for themselves and their family. I don't doubt you are a strong person, just look at your screen name, precious_diamond, you chose a name that appears to tell how you feel about yourself, unlike mine which is just a name to hide behind.
It is ultimatly your decision, and everyone on the boards here will support you with whatever decision you come to. Surgery is not right for everyone and we all know that. Please don't feel that I'm trying to talk you into surgery. I just want to make sure you are not talking yourself out of it for the wrong reasons. Either way, we'll be here for you. You can count on that.
Jete
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