Been A While-Need To Write

Haven't written in a while and it's time for me to get myself back into keeping my inner thoughts out there.  Tomorrow makes 17 months since my vsg, starting weight 267 current weight 151 (I have gained 3 lbs)Ahhhhhh!!!  I know that doesn't seem like much but I am afraid that I am getting back into my old habits.  For the past two weeks I have been eating more crap (sorry but that what it is) than I have eaten since before my surgery and I am getting scared.  I feel like I am losing control because I have learned how to work my sleeve, meaning when I feel that tightness I stop and after a while I start eating again once the feeling is gone.  I have been eating carbs like there is no tomorrow, I mean I can sit there and eat a whole can of pringles in a few hours, devil dogs, etc. nothing that is good for me (good tasting but not good for me).  

So today as I stepped on the scale and my weight was 151 lbs I looked in the mirror and said STOP!!!!!  I am teaching my inner thoughts to stop with the bad carbs and eat my protein like the way I know I can and should.  It just scares me how easy it is to be able to go back to those bad habits!!!!  But, I got my head back facing the right way again and will stick to what I have been doing for the past 17 months.  I'm not saying I won't have a bad carb here or there but it's up to me what goes into my mouth and what I buy for my house - and I have to STOP.  I worked to hard to get where I am now, from a size 22 pants to a size 8, from a size 2x top to a medium - I never want to see those sizes again in my closet and I am the only one who can stop that from happening.  

I still love my sleeve and still so happy that I had it done!!

Toni

You and I have almost the same starting weight and ending weight -- I started at 265 and leveled at 150.  I am three years out.  Unfortunately, I got back into the junk carbs and sugar after being sick and in the hospital (nothing to do with wls), and I have regained 20+ pounds.  Been fighting them for a year now.

Soooo, the point of my note to you is to get a grip NOW before those three pounds turn into something more!  As I keep saying, junk carbs and sugar cause you to crave more of the same.  They are the absolute devil! 

Best wishes on your determination to get back on track.  You can do it!
--Dorothy

Hi Toni,

You have come so far and good for you for stopping the cycle NOW before it gets out of control. Is there a reason for wanting the junk food/carbs? Are you eating to compensate for stress or boredom or an emotional issue? I suggest you find out WHY you are sabotaging yourself and get to the root of the issue. From your post I can see were purposely eating around your sleeve and maybe talking to someone can help you out.

I wish you much continued success.



~Lori

First, I would like to congratulate you on realizing that there is a problem and posting about it after gaining only a few pounds.  That in itself makes you a winner.  If I was going through the same issues you are having now, (and I am sure I will at one time or another), I would immediately start journaling every bite.  This alone will almost certainly get you back on track.  I know that it seems tedious this far out to have to do this, but almost nothing will snap you back to reality faster than having to write down one sleeve of Pringles and the calorie and carb count.  That will wake you right up.  I know you already know what to do, now you have to do it.  Good luck to all of us.  Maintaining is a lifelong journey and I am glad we have each other for the support.