I underestimated the POWER of my addiction....long
good insight with yourself and honesty.
Thank you for sharing.
You are a beaufiul person and deserve
all recovery!
✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
I also identify as a food addict (a sugar addict specifically). I think it is somewhat easy for us to come to the realization that our behavior is addict-like. What seems to be much harder is to accept the treatment for addiction is abstinence. That pill is much harder to swallow. And its one we usually have to come to grips with over and over again in life.
I'm 7 months out tomorrow and am still enjoying the "honeymoon" phase thinking that those pre-op behaviors are in my past...far behind me. Yet I was traveling last week and got a takeaway for dinner and I ordered a sweet tea along with ny water. Thankfully I threw it out, but I couldn't figure out what drove me to buy it in the first place.
A couple of weeks before that I was also traveling and bought a pop tart from the vending machine...why??? Again I was able to throw it out (after a few bites) but its that old behavior still in me. Put your guard down and it sneaks up on you.
Those of us who do identify with addict behavior in regards to food need posts like these to remind us how important it is to recognize our patterns so we can continue to fight the good fight.
Thanks,
Lindsey
