Early results of my self-imposed eating experiment

(deactivated member)
on 6/24/11 4:30 am

Dear Ms. Shell,

Just earlier today I saw your beautiful smiling face on another post and I thought to myself how much I miss seeing your avatar on this site. You have not been around as much lately or maybe I am the one that has been away more, but you have been the voice of reason and maturity from the very beginning of this journey for me. I am not sure if I have ever told you just how much seeing your real, kind and oh so genuine face has meant to me. I could always count on you to tell me the truth in the gentlest way. Seeing your avatar on this site makes me feel like coming home. I hope all is well in your world, you deserve only the very best.

Ms Shell
on 6/24/11 6:48 am - Hawthorne, CA

VSG on 11/26/07

Well thank you Elina...I'm struggling with some old and dear internal struggle. Trying to find my way back on track and stop my old demons from emerging. I'm never far from the site...

"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface

(deactivated member)
on 6/24/11 7:13 am

VSG on 06/30/09

I am sorry you are struggling a bit. I know you have heard it all before, been there and done that. You could probably write a book about it and it would be a best seller on this site. I want to share something new I have been doing with my demons, maybe there is something there for you. I have been welcoming them with love and hugs and not fighting them lately. I treat them as honored guests that have come for a visit. First, I greet them by name, as everybody wants to be known. This one is from my old childhood emotional trauma, welcome old friend, I know you well. This one is boredom and here comes loneliness. Come in, have a drink, lets reminisce and talk about the good old bad times. But after we are through chatting, I need to go, much to do today. Let me walk you to the door. I know you are busy too, many other people to visit today. No fear that they will move in, no regrets that they came for a visit, just acceptance of where they come from and boundaries around the length of the visit. By refraiming the behavior, I let go of the guilt and the shame. Without the guilt, they soon run out of things to say to me and my new behaviors kick right back in.

If non of this works, then forget it and just give me a hug. I totally get the demon thing. Still a work in progress myself.

mrsfrogdr
on 6/25/11 2:04 am

I had to go looking for this post based upon what you said to Shell in her later post...and it was worth the search....I get it...stop running from the deamons...because they will chase you anyway...so feel them when they come and let them go...with out trying to hide from them with food....THANK YOU!!!!!!

Big Frog Kisses,
DAWN

DrHollywood
on 6/24/11 4:22 am - Harbor City, CA

VSG on 02/01/11

Great Post!

Your post enables me think about my journey and also encourages me to
engage some things to my life-style!

Thanks!

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                                    " HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)

                                       " CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)

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                                 "AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)

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(deactivated member)
on 6/24/11 4:34 am

VSG on 06/30/09

Having community is great! We all learn so much from each other. Take what works for you, leave the rest for someone else. You are going great, congratulations.

MN_Mama
on 6/24/11 4:24 am

VSG on 02/25/11

Wonderful post Elina.

I am following my doctors "rules" easily, but just started to "get" mindful eating this last month. The few times I get caught out without a packed lunch or breakfast, and have to get a low carb version of fast food just creeps me out, and it didn't used to. I had a bun-less burger last week and grossed myself out but good. Ended up actually reverting to one of my stashed protein shakes (yuck!) rather than eat the greasy thing.

If the chicken or fish is overcooked, I pass. I always appreciated well cooked, good food, but never passed up what was offered before. Quite a change.

I think I will practice your moment of gratitude for each bite. It sounds like adding another, healthy, level of enjoyment to mealtimes.

Love my sleeve!!

(deactivated member)
on 6/24/11 4:40 am

VSG on 06/30/09

In the beginning it was all about following my doctor's program. I am glad you are doing the same. I didn't feel "safe" to eat intuitively until almost two years out and even then I did so very carefully. I think it takes a long time to truly change bad habits and make sure the change sticks for good. I hear you about eating at fast food restaurants and how disgusting it seems now. I find that Starbucks has a reasonable protein option with egg, cheese and almonds when I am away from my regular food or I didn't plan well. I leave the dried cranberries and crackers alone and only eat about half the cheese. It is healthy and meets my needs without the greasy "yuck" factor. It is a bit higher in calories but eat as much as you need and throw the rest away.

laurak712
on 6/24/11 5:03 am - New Braunfels, TX

VSG on 01/12/09

I do it this way too Elina, and it works great for me! I also will only eat things I really like...no more crap or fast food or eating something just because it's there. I have to WANT it!

Laura

Height 5' 7