MY secret, MY struggles, MY journey...
Thank you for always being honest and "real", it means a lot to me and I'm sure to so many others here!
Hugs to you...
Jean 
I'm 45, 5' 4-1/2" -- 315/272/230 -- 43 lbs lost pre-op
"Progress, not perfection..." ~Dr. Roger Gould
Breast reduction & lift - 11/11/11 (sooo wonderful!!!)
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
It just sort of sneaks up and grabs you even though you know you are not making the right choices. It's like your dear mother saying that it was o.k. because they would clean up her blood later. Anything to justify the behavior.
As I was eating chocolate covered raisins, my brain was saying that it was o.k. because I have been so 'perfect' for the last two years. After all, it was only a store sample, how could that hurt me? The store sample encouraged me to buy 6 chocolate covered raisins more (they are sold in bulk). That worked o.k. but the next shopping trip went beyond 6 ccraisins. I bought like a quarter pound. My weight stayed o.k. so the next time I bought more. Soon I was buying like one pound bags and eating them til I almosed puked.
I wish I had something wonderful happening like falling in love as you have, but I don't. But, just seeing your pretty face and reading your post today have really helped.
God bless you Darlin' for always being here for the rest of us!
My prayers are with you.
Oh, and give Billy Dee a big hug!
Original surgery: VSG Feb. 2009
REVISED TO RNY FEBRUARY 2016
Height: 5'7"
Start weight: 252. Current weight: 120
I've really really MISSED you guys as well. OMG doesn't it just "sneak" up. Wish I could have "blamed" my gain on falling in love, lol. I'm back =)
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
Then I fell in love and all the fear, anxiety and stress of wondering how this would all turn out (what would a break up do to me?) took hold. The next thing I knew, I had gained back all the weight I lost... I was back at 250 in no time. Over the course of the past 10 years with just about every major life stressor you can think of occuring in that time (marriage, pregnancy/parenthood, major job change resulting in a cross-country move, my only parent had cancer, a stroke, a heart attack and passed away), I put on 100 more lbs.
Now here I am at 348 (I was at 360 prior to starting the pre-op diet for the lapband I didn't wind up getting) and I'm ready to finally focus on getting my health back.
Thanks for your story, Ms Shell... it's a great reminder that the work doesn't end once we hit our goal. Been there, done that and will be more wary of "scale creep" this time around!
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"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
Love ya
Hugs
Donna
Leaky sleeve survivor!!! 2008/2009 ~ 5'7"~ 42F Bougie 
Me AND the food post is back, lol!!
"WLS is only for people who are ready to move past the "diet" mentality" ~Alison Brown
"WLS is not a Do-Over (repeat same mistakes = get a similar outcome.) It is a Do-BETTER (make lifestyle changes you can continue forever.)" ~ Michele Vicara aka Eggface
