Stacey, so sorry to hear about the issues you have been having.  Understandable why you are doubting your choices, hopefully you will feel tons better soon.

With the amount of blood loss, etc. your iron levels probably lowered, talk to your dr. about iron supplements if you aren't already taking them.  B-12 is also a key for energy.  For me it took a good solid 2 months before I was out of the exhaustion stage (although I was also working 2 jobs at the time).

Lisa had it right with the hormonal stuff.  those fat cells burst and push all those hormones out into our systems and cause major mood issues, it will pass too.

Keep carefully trying on the foods.  You will find things that will work for you.  For me it was easiest to but normal foods into the blender so that I could have that real taste.  Some of what I liked in the beginning, scrambled eggs, tuna, egg salad, yogurt, oatmeal, grits, cream of wheat, lean ground beef (pan browned with a bit of cheese on top), refried beans, chili, ham & bean soup (in the blender).  Remember to be careful when trying new things as your tummy might rebel since it is still healing.  Don't eat too fast, chew really well.  Use beano/gas-x as needed.

We are here for you.  Please let us know if we can help.

Good Morning all!  Had a normal, event free day yesterday and it was nice.  Only at work half a day today as I have an afternoon Dr. appt. to follow up on some issues.  Hopefully I can get some answers.  Plan to enjoy the good weather when I get home, a walk with the dog, bike ride or both.  :)

Yesterday's results:
protein drink - 0 (need to hit the store)
a.m. cuppas - in
B - oatmeal (heart healthy serving size); actually ended up with half a bagel w/cream cheese, my monthly treat with my bff
S - fruit; actually had other half of the bagel
L - 5 oz pork chop, salad; actually had burrito bowl from chipotle, less rice, more lettuce & chicken, less sour cream
S - 100 calorie pack popcorn; actually had none
D - grilled chicken & veggies; actually had 5 oz baked chicken, topped with some shredded cheese and mixed veggies

Plans for today:
no protein drink
cuppas in
B - mini bagel with cream cheese & banana
S - 6 pk, whole grain peant butter crackers
L - salad and 1/2 pbj
S - granola bar
D - not sure yet

Have a great one!

((((stacey)))) I didn't have bleeding issues, but I can so relate. I had a leak and had my 2nd operation 2 days after my initial surgery. I was in for about 3 weeks and it was touch and go for a while. Other than the pain of both surgeries, I also suffered (still at times) from nausea/vomiting and the resulting dehydration. 

You are doing great by getting your fluids in and your protein. When I was 3 weeks post op, I couldn't eat anything at all. I was told that as long as I got my fluids in, that was the most important thing. Shoot, I was still struggling with clears! 

I'm guessing you will slowly regain your energy and it will surprise you all at once. That's what happened to me. It does get better. Others told me the same thing and I swear I just knew they were lying! They weren't. 

Try to take it day by day and don't stress yourself. It will get better. Once you get over this hump, your buyer's remorse will fade away...



Best wishes to you,

Renee

Stacy,

I think nearly all of us have a moment or moments of "What have I done?"  It's normal.  Also, if you suffered from depression or anxiety prior to surgery, this can get worse in the initial weeks following surgery.
Your body stores hormones in your fat cells and as these fat cells are being used and eliminated, the hormones are released...think of it as PMS x 100.  It DOES get better. 
I am the exception to the rule...the one who makes the complication statistics...I am in that tiny percent that faces complications--some life threatening. 
I can tell you, today...that, nearly 3 years post op...after hundreds (literally) of hospital stays, MANY blood transfusions, several additional surgeries and continuing ongoing issues...I would STILL walk into that surgery suite and STILL have my RNY in a second. 
WHY?
Because my life now...even when I feel awful...if a million times better than when I weighed 350 pounds.  Is it hard for my family when I'm sick?  Yes, it is...but, through this process and some other issues that have occurred, my marriage, my family and my everything are stronger, better, and happier.

I know that it's hard to look on the bright side and it's hard to imagine what life will be like a week from now, a month from now...a YEAR from now.  But, you WILL feel better and you WILL be okay. 
From a medical standpoint, it does take roughly 6-8 weeks to feel your best...so, as the days/weeks pass, focus on one good thing at a time.  Walk, drink, eat already "pureed" foods like refried beans, scrambled eggs, etc.  The mental thing that happens when we can't eat normally combined with the hormones, being post-op, etc....this can really cause depression to ramp up. 

Hang in there!

Had my one year checkup yesterday... official 1 year date is Thursday, April 15th.  I can't believe it's been a year!  anyhow, blood work looked good.  all number where they should be.  Woo hoo!
I'm working at the school 7 to 3 and at the Liberty Tax office 4 to 9 almost every day... and 9 to 5 on Saturdays.  SOOOOO glad tax season will be over on Thursday.  YAY!  The extra money has been nice but I'm too darn old to be working two jobs!
So... today I'm actually off the schedule for the tax office, so....
B:  cottage cheese with fruit
S:  coffee - that's 1/2 c. skim milk, 1 scoop Click, 1 scoop vanilla protein powder, dash of s/f choc syrup and a cup of coffee all mixed together.
L:  1/2 meatball sub... no bread.  Just meatballs, sauce and cheese.
S:  a handful of mini rice cakes - I've become addicted to Creme Brulee flavored!
and at some point a protein shake when I get home
D:  not sure yet... but I'll actually be home to cook dinner so probably steak salad.
S:  an apple

Lots of walking either outside or if it's raining, on the treadmill.