Lei~~ Where are YOU???

May 2, 2006 Sometimes, I just want to climb to the top of a water tower with a high powered rifle! I swear, I am about a half a nerve from completely having a nervous breakdown. Let's see ... The divorce was finally final on April 10, but the judge didn't sign the papers until the 21st. I've had power shut off at my house and have to live in a friggin hotel until May 20. I sold my house, but don't close until the 19th. I found another house, but can't move in until the night of the 19th, and have to get mine packed up with no lights. I have a car that doesn't run, a job that doesn't pay, and a life that doesn't seem to matter. I'm telling you, with everything ... water shut offs, bounced paychecks, falling behind on bills so far I can't see the light, not having a dime to my name, and not knowing where my next breath will come from ... I'm just wiped out. Completely. I really just want to give up. Shanna

Shanna, I am not Lei, but I just wanted to wish you the best of luck during this tough time you are going through! ((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))) Sometimes life just keeps piling on the shi# until it seems that it will suffocate us! But you have already been through so much and have come out stronger! They say that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, but sometimes He gets really close! This too shall pass! Be strong and know that we are here for you. Email me if you want to talk. I know I can't be of much help, but I'll listen and help in any way that I can. JoAnn

G'morning JoAnn ~ I just wanted to THANK YOU for taking the time to reach out and help a friend of mine - someone you've never talked to, or met, yet you felt compelled out of nothing more then the KINDNESS OF YOUR HEART, to reach out. You're very special ~ Hugs, Lei

Hi Shanna, I'm not Lei, but I wanted to tell you to hang in there!! Things will get better, really, Don't give up, and try to hang on. I know Lei would have many more profound things to say to you, and I'm sorry that I don't, but I love you Shanna, even though I don't know you, and I hope you have a better day. Don't give up! love donna

Hello Donna ~ What a sweet reply from you to Shanna - and one of the best things I took away from it? I know without a doubt, when you say "love" it's from way down deep in your soul and I hope Shanna realizes that and wraps herself around the genuine warmth behind it. You know I love you too pieces, and it's gracious acts (responses) on your part, like this one, that amplifies just how lucky I am to have you in my life! Hugs ~ Lei

G'morning Shanna, it's been FOREVER, Ive missed you! I'm SO SORRY to hear that life has dealt you so many challenges and all at once. I can see why it's "completely consuming and overwhelming" for you right now. Hell, it overwhelmed me, just reading it. The best advice is probably to look at each challenge, individually, verses as a lump group - tackling what you can in the order that benefits you the most. Please, whatever you do? Don't give up and DON'T forget to keep yourself HEALTHY. If you think it's tough dealing with life now, it'll be damn near impossible if your health starts to fail. You need to stay strong, both mentally and physically. Anyway - Ive sent you a longer private email, hopefully you rec'v it? OH is doing a LOT of upgrades right now and Im having problems getting things to stick, so there's no telling if the "email" feature is working correctly. If you don't get it, hollar back at me. You're a very STRONG WOMAN - reflect back on the last 3+ years of your personal journey and transitioning from a life of extreme obesity. That's one of the hardest battles you'll ever have to fight, and not only did you FIGHT the good fight - you were SUCCESSFUL in the end. You're a stronger person today then you were the day you took on your biggest challenge in life, your health. Find that inner strength, sweet lady, it's STILL there, I promise! Look for my email - hugs/love - Lei