My latest update (very very long)

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You know that I can relate.  When I went in for my exploratory surgery, Dr. Mo found a perforated ulcer that was previously unseen on my EGD.  So, I don't think it's a bad idea to have that surgery on Oct. 1.
I know how you're feeling and it is so easy to fall into the when is it going to end mentality...it can be all consuming.  You are being proactive and working with your medical team and keeping check of your health and THAT is the number one most important thing you can do!
I'm totally with you on the would I still do it train...IN A HEARTBEAT!!!  I weighed 350 pounds and I could not keep up with anything.  I"m still healthier NOW in a "sick" state than I was "well" at 350 pounds. 
Keep up your fantastic work and hang in there...we're all praying for you and rooting for you!
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Hang in there Teresa and God will be by your side, Ive had the feeding tube in the beging of my journey and it will make a difference for you right now. You need to get the foods in you as well as your vit. and whatever meds. your taking they made all mine liquid and it all went in the tube, so request it if u need too. Be strong and  we are all here for you. Prayers your way kid...   

With all you have gone through sweety .. your attitude is awesome .
Yes , God is the ultimate healer and with prayer and conviction I know you will get through this .

You are so very brave and honest for sharing your story here .
I feel it is very beneficial for all of us , not only pre-ops but for those that may be post op and having complications.

Dr. B is very good at what he does .. and I am sure he will do everything he can for you .

My very best to you and prayers will said for you .

Hugs,

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