Tina,
Though I can't say I know exactly what you are feeling, I can tell you that I lost both of my parents within two months a few months back, and understand what you are going through right now. It is so difficult. Please know that I am thinking of you and your family in this difficult time.
Cindy
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The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.
....Helen Keller