Checking in
Here I am with another effort at staying connected. Things have been very challenging around here – you may remember that I posted about my son making some VERY BAD decisions which led to things we could not fix. So now we are dealing with the consequences. As a result, our family has been turned on its head and I can only hope we will all be stronger because of it.
Initially, I was staying strong and not comforting myself with old habits of food and self-loathing. Unfortunately, those old ways caught up with me and had a field day. I know you all understand when I say that I hate this more than anything in the world! I hate, hate, hate that I want to drown my worry, fear, shame, and despair with food. I hate that self-care and self-love are so foreign to me and so difficult. And I really hate that I am undoing the hard work that I thought was behind me – or at least being managed. But today is a new day and I am here, reaching out yet again. I can only hope that all of you aren’t as sick of me as I am!! I am telling myself to deal with things for an hour at a time today and we’ll see how that goes. Thanks for not giving up on me when I am so willing to give up on myself!
Mary D.
Pre op: 260 lbs, 5'3"
Goal reached 14 months later: 130 lbs
Regain over next 3.5 years to a high of: 166 lbs
Current weight: 135.8 lbs and heading back to 130 lbs!!
Welcome home, sweetie! You have been missed. Life is always a challenge...just handle things as best as you can and lift your troubles up to the Lord. He is listening!
Have faith and YES, your family will be stronger. As for you..just pick yourself up, wipe off and jump back on the wagon. It is OK. We all have moments...this is nothing new. We are here to support you in any way we can!
Yes, today is a new day and one hour at a time is fabulous! I will hold you and your family close in prayer. I am here for anything you need...anytime! When are you free for dinner? We are overdo for a "girls" night out...
Love you much!
Tammy C
down 260+ pounds and loving life more than ever!!!
proud mom to Kara 12-08-1994 and our newest addition Claire Makenna born 03-26-09 weighing 6 lbs 13 ounces and 19.25 inches long and very healthy. happily dating...i honestly never knew it could be this good! there is that special Guy for everyone out there...either you already have him or you will find him when He is ready for it!
open RNY 04-25-2005
Life could not get any better than this!
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Believing in yourself makes it so much easier in supporting those who need your friendship, love, and support,so Believe in yourself First.
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