Update...sigh...

My dear OH family...

I am having a horrible time this week.  Dealing with my pain, fatigue, emotions, etc.  I am so tired and so sad about my Granddaddy's death.  I am also struggling with financial issues that are beyond terrible right now. 
I just really really need lots of prayer and support.  I am so sad and my depression is getting the better of me these past few days.  Granddaddy's viewing is tomorrow (Monday) and the funeral is Tuesday.  I know that things will be a bit better after that.  But, with Christmas just around the corner, the financial issues are starting to feel overwhelming.
I just need to sort of get it all out, if you don't mind.  Most of you know that I self paid my RNY.  My insurance doesn't cover it.  Long story short, with all of the complications that I've had...the medical bills are staggering.  I am blessed that Dr. Mo has lessened his charges to me--but, the hospital stays, the EGD's, the home IV therapy, etc. etc. etc.  At this point, I am in danger of losing my home...my home that I've only been in since June...the home that was supposed to be my forever home.  Because of all of the times that I've been in the hospital, my husband has had to deal with the brunt of responsibility at home while holding down a full time job as a police officer.  Obviously, his job is high stress and home life is high stress and things are just awful.
I am just not even sure what to do anymore...the mortgage company doesn't really have any programs to help us because we've been in the house less than a year.  So, we're behind on the mortgage as well as some other bills.  We've been able to maintain heat, electricity, water, food, etc....just the necessities.  But, I don't have a job right now...and I am really too sick to work...I don't have enough energy to do it.  Of course, the stress makes me feel worse and certainly doesn't help the ulcers...ugh!

I am just venting, folks...I just really really need prayer and love and support.  I'm feeling really defeated.  I've been able to keep a pretty strong countenance up to this point...but, it's fading.  The thought of me losing my home is overwhelming.  I am at that point...that point where I'm wondering what have I done.  If I had not had this surgery, the downward spiral would never have occurred.  I would be well enough to work and would not be in this situation.  Needless to say, I feel like all of this is my fault and I'm just plain sad about it.
Thanks for "listening."

Hi Lisa, I'm so sorry that you are going thru so much at one time.
I have PM you.
Priscilla

Lisa,

I'm sorry you are going through so much. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. You have been facing an uphill climb. Please don't give up/in. Try and focus on the positives and know that we are hear for you. I do sincerely wish I could help you in anyway possible. So, prays are what I can help with. Please put everything before the Lord.

Lisa,

I am sorry you and your family are going thru this. I am here if you need me.  Prayers are my speciality...one of my favorite things to do so please know that you and your family will remain in my families prayers and with your permission I will add to my church list as well.  One thing that I try to focus on when things seem impossible is that even though it may not seem like it at the time...God NEVER gives us more than we can handle.  He is there for all of us no matter how big or small the issue it.  He is there for you and your family.  PM me or call if you just need to talk.  I am here anytime!  Sending you big hugs!

Hi Lisa,

You have had to endure so much recently.  My thoughts and prayers are with you.  I pray that all your problems get resolved and that God will give you the strength and faith to get you through this rough period in your life.

Lisa,

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers this holiday season. This year is so hard for people with the economy the way it is. Keep your chin up and don't let it consume you. I use this technique and maybe it will work for you too.....   Ask yourself this- " Is there anything I can do right now to fix my problems?" If the answer is no Say- " Screw it!!" Seriously there is no need in stressing 24hrs a day about something that can't be changed right now. I do that now myself and I am so relieved that I have my life back. Everything will work out in the end. If you need anything just let me know and I will help out in any way I can.

I have this taped to my work computer and thought it appropriate for you:

To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.
When God takes something from your grasp, he's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.

The Will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.

Blessings to get through these tough times, Lauren

Dear Lisa,
Prayers coming to you as you struggle through some hard times. Reach out to the community if you need help. There are so many resources out there to help. Your health is most important and you are now on your way to good health.
 Peace to you,
Cindy

Lisa,
I am very sorry you are having such a terrible time. Sometimes we can feel like we have really messed up our lives and the lives of those we love, and we wonder how it will ever get better. Believe me when I say that God is looking on you and your family with great love and compassion. He will never leave you nor forsake you, and He will always keep His promise to provide all your needs, according to His riches in glory.
Joe and Amy

Lisa,
Sorry to hear about all that you and your family are going through. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. Prayers going up before the Lord for  comfort, strength,  guidance and a financial blessing.
Love and Prayers being sent your way.
Tomygirl (Betty )