This seals the deal

Well this thursday Oct 16th is my surgery date! I am so excited. But so scared. I never found an angel through this site though. I guess I really didn;t get to know many of you. I am sorry for that.

Today was a real eye opener though. How ignorant people can be.. I took my little sister out to her first night club. After chilling there for about 2 1/2 hours just dancing and enjoyin the music. This girl comes up to me and was like... Can I ask you a question,, I am like sure.. She then continues to say that it was a horrible question to ask and that there would be money for me if i helped her. I was like whatever.. what is it... She said that her and her friends were doing a bet to see who can get the fattest girl up on the bar to dance. (My heart sank.. ) I stayed composed and just laughed it off. She guarenteed me that it was set that I was going to win. $20 . I was like what the hell. I am not going to be this big much longer. So I walked over there and this feeling of huge emotional pain began to swell in my throat. Still I stayed strong. I didn;t want my sister to see me break down. Well my luck they cancelled the bet.. and I still got the money but I have never felt so low my whole life. I literally left my house feeling like a million bucks and returned home feeling like scum.. What is so funny about plus size women. What give people the right to hurt someone so bad.

It was a horrible night.. Double neg.. I started the liquid diet for 5 days straight at midnight.. BLAH.. colon cleaning is in the near future.. Double Blah..

Thanks for reading.. I am just feeling extremely bad tonight.

That is AWFUL! How can people be so rude?!?! I'm impressed that you held it together through that. I'm so, so sorry. I don't know what makes people think they have the right to do things like that. I'm so tired of people looking at me and seeing nothing but fat.

It only gets better from here, though. Keep telling yourself that. The liquid diet will be tough, but you handled the ignorant people beautifully so I'm sure you can handle this.

Best of luck!

Katherine sorry that happen to you and I think you handle it very good and I am proud of you for the way that you handle it. Keep going forward and you will get better and even more beautiful. Just know that there are some out there that can be very ugly and hurtful but know that we do not have to pay attention to them just walk away and that will hurt them more than us. We will be saving a place on the loser bench for you.

The world is full of aweful, rude, self centered people and unfortunately you found some (or they found you).  Congrats on handling yourself like you did.  I know it hurt!  And like you said...go back in a year and then get up on the bar and show them what it is all about!  Just remember...try not to drink!  I have no advise on the liquid diet...I did not have to do that but you will be fine.  You are strong enough to get thru the bar incident so I KNOW you can do this, too!

big hugs!!!

Your day is coming soon and you will be putting this behind you.  People are jerks & don't consider how horrible they are.  Try not to let it get you down because they were so stupid.  You are beautiful and I am sure very special!  You are making changes to become healthier and in the long run you are the smart one.

Sorry to hear about the bar scene. I never could understand why people make fun of folks that are over weight.  Now that I have loss I still look at heavy women with respect. I know where I came from and I know what they feel. After all we are all equal in God's eyes no matter what we look like on the outside. I want to say good luck on your up coming surgery, I will be praying for you.
Tomygirl

Surgery is right around the corner. people are soooo rude. even that girl knew she was wrong by giving you that disclaimer up front. what a bunch jerks. i am sorry you had to go through that. I will be praying for you.

You will NOT be that girl for long. You will see results within weeks of your surgery! I was so fat for so long that I almost forgot who that skinny person was. I lost  66lbs since July 14. I now can't remember that fat person! I know what I'm talking about. So who is the joke on now? In a few months you can go into that bar and find that girl and tell her you are in a bet that you had to get the ugliest girl on the dance floor and can she help you out!! HAHA I really would not want to make someone feel bad, but it is a funny thing to think about! YOur turn will be here before you know it!!!

It never ceases to amaze me how cruel people can be.  Please know that not all people are like that, and concentrate on the positive ones out there...regardless of the fact that you are getting WLS.  People like that are, basically, insecure themselves and somehow make themselves feel better by demeaning others.  Know that you are better than them any day of the week.

The positive thing is that you have something terrific to look forward to...your surgery and the great ride that follows it.  Keep that in mind, and push the other, negative things, away.

If you would like an angel, I am volunteering.  I know we don't live close, but I am just a phone call away.  I will PM you, and if you are interested, just let me know and we can exchange information.

Hang in there...

People are un-imaginably cruel.  You are on your way and BIG HUGS to you for Thursday!!!