Needing to come clean...AGAIN!

Now that sounds more like you. Please keep posting and I want to hear more of what is going on. A cot under a nice shade tree sounds good. I wish I could be up there with you.

Well, since I'm coming in on the short stick here and everyone has already said what I was going to say, so the only thing I can add Ann is that I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and you should tell your hubby what's going on. You will definiely feel better even if you don't want to. Hang in there sweetie and trust in the Lord...Hugs, Jim

Hey there my Buddy!  Thanks for adding your 2 cents worth...just having you respond at all is worth a million to me!  I'm hanging in, for sure.  You & Betty hug each other & know that that hug is from me, ok?

You got it sweetie and I'm pulling for you so let's get this thing behind us and get on with the program of life..MAny hugs and prayers your way...Jim & Betty

Hi, Ann:  Though I know we don't know each other very well, I wanted you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.  You are going through so much, and your time has come for a break!  I hope Mike hears something very soon about work that will work well for him, and for you.  I would imagine that alone would take a huge weight off of both of your shoulders.  I pray that things go well for you next week with the doctor -- if the implant needs "tweaking" I would imagine that would have a lot to do with how you are feeling.  Brighter days ahead!  As far as jealousy -- all of us have been there or are there with the weight.  My weight has been bouncing all over the place this last week -- it is disgusting me -- like you, I know it is water weight, but still, when you step on the scale, you want to scream like a banshee!   Know that we are all here to support each other, and not to judge anyone.  You are dealing with so much -- that alone deserves a lot of support and cheering on.  If I can be of help, please let me know.  I can PM you my cell phone number -- if nothing else, I am a great listener!  Hang in there, and I look forward to hearing good news on all fronts very soon! 

Cindy, you're such a little treasure.  I love the comment you wrote about wanting to scream like a banshee.  Amen to that!!  I have a picture on my bathroom wall of a lady standing on her scale, with a gun in her handed pointed at the scale.  That's how I feel!!  I'm pretty sure once the "tweaking" gets done, I will start to feel better physically which can only help me feel better emotionally.  As for the job situation...one day at a time.  It's the same old game...hurry up & wait!  I KNOW something will come through...it's just getting through the interim that's making us both nuts!!  I would LOVE to have your number so please do PM it to me.  Thanks for listening!

Ann,

I wrote a response to this and somehow it never posted- darn it - I am having computer issues these days!

I am sorry you are having issues Ann - some you can control and some you can't but hopefully having the device tweaked will make a tremendous difference to the whole way you feel...

I hope everything comes together for Mike- he looks like he is between a rock and a hard place but better than no job at all........ How did  Matt get on with his interview a couple of weeks ago?

But I do think you need to tell him about your medical issues - he has a right to know   - and the break on the farm for him is good but you are not getting a break from reality.  I think you are lonely without him near and should tell him so.... you need support too.

You don't need to be jealous of us Anne - we are all struggling with our own private weight demons - this is a for life surgery... so we will all have to think about food every day of our lives.....

But as someone said, you should think of all of the positive things in your life- you have your husband your family  - and all of US to support you .... a place to say and food on the table, a beautiful garden and a talent for gardening and for making crafts...... oh and did I say all of US to support you?!!

Hang in there - you have a lot going on right now - it will all come together.....

Jackie

Hello beautiful!!!!  You all have been in my thoughts & prayers and continue to be.  Of course everything you are going through emotionally is something we have all probably gone through.  The insomnia & depression probably go hand in hand along with your medical issues.  Hopefully you will get evened out soon.  I personally love my Tylenol P.M.  Mike's situation is tough.  One good note, there are so many commuter van opportunites out that way to a lot of the jobs in D.C. hopefully if he does get something out that way then there will be one available that would work for him.  My b-i-l rides one, the cost is less than what it would cost him to travel in by himself every day, he gets some extra sleep in the van, and less wear & tear of his vehicle.  One suggestion I would offer you is to make yourself get up & go.  As you pointed out to me, spending time with friends, family, etc. and forcing yourself to do things you enjoy do help so much to lift the spirits.  Start your classes, go work in your yard (even if it is only 5 - 10 minutes at a time), move off that couch and go sit on your porch & enjoy that beautiful property of yours.  Love you very much & hope things start to get better soon!!!!