Update on me

Ok I will try to do better and just bear with me. I am a person who thinks of others and not herself. I am going to start a diary of what I am eating and see what that does.

Pat , as you know I have been following your progress and am glad that you are home. I was really worried about you ........  please do everything the doctors have told you as they may not have got to the bottom of it yet so you still need to be careful...... and no more brownies! Whether the brownie caused this or not, you are not supposed to eat them and they are SO sugar intensive!!!  Diabetes is no joke - I have a friend in California who just lost two toes and is in real danger of losing his leg because of infection and he is only 39  - but for years was in denial for his diabetes and abused it. He will never be the same again so please pa y attention to it - it does not take a day off and neither should you. I know you will get sick of people telling you this but we all love you and are worried about you...... I am glad that you are feeling better and hope you never repeat it! Jackie

Good morning Jackie, thank you for your prayers and just to let you know that this has got to me and I am going to do something about it. I will still be coming to your house and will watch what I eat. I think that you are right when you said that they might not have gotten to the bottom of this. I feel like there is still somethings I do not understand and why I was not told things. But were said to Kat or someone in my family.

Hey Mom, Just saying I love you and will be the pain in your a** (as usual). I tend not to say much but rather SHOW you (and others) that it starts with YOU. You KNOW damn well what you are supposed to be doing and not doing and not admitting to yourself & others what your demons are does nothing more than make things worse. I hope this scared you good (we'll see) and that you focus on what you need to. You've had help all this time you've just ignored it. We all have stressors and things going on in our lives. I got you coming to meetings, events and you've seen what I've been through and others as well. I'm trying to get you to see that you DO have choices you just have to make them. This isn't just over a brownie but over your life & health. You saw my Granny & Nanny went through. Its not fun watching people I love kill themselves because they are too selfish to wake up and realize. Trust me when I say I am not throwing in the towel but at the same time if you don't care then maybe I shouldn't. So, if you don't want to be around for your kids/grandkids then I guess that's your choice. I'm not being hard on you at all. I'm being honest. I mean lets be honest Mom. I'm a recovering alcoholic with 9+ months sobriety under my belt. Its BECAUSE of fam & friends and especially my buggas that I make the choice EVERYDAY to say NO to drinking. I want it ALL so I cannot have ANY. Funny how the tables turn when its YOU now instead of me needing a swift kick in the a**! Ya'll got on me about me killing myself and how I was selfish and didn't care. Pot calling the kettle black. If *I* can get and stay sober then YOU can get and stay healthy/healthier. Its not easy of course temptation is all around us and I struggle more than most know with sobriety but every day gets better and easier and I don't miss it. Ok bye.

Thank you sweetie and I know that you mean well. I know how things went with my mom and nanny and I am not trying to be like them. With help I am going to get on a diet that will help and food that my body will tolerate. I think that there is more going on than what I have been told. When I go to see Dr Jones I am going to talk to him and see where I need to go to get things under control. You know that I want to be here for the grandkids and you kids. I would like for you to be with me for my doctors appointments so that someone other than me hears what they say and ask questions that I might forget. My mind is not what it use to be. I want a diet and going to keep a diary of what I eat and see how that goes.

Pat, I'm so glad to see you are feelinhg better and have a diagnosis now.  Just work hard on the doctors orders and GET WELL.  Can't wait to see you again soon - we did have a great time at Panera's the other night!  :)

Thank you Lauren and yes it was a lot of fun even if I did get sick. I cannot wait until the next one. At least now we know a little more of what is wrong with me and can get it under control.

Hey Pat, I've been in Florida for the last 10 days working on our house and didn't have a computer with me so I'm just now catching up on folks.  I'm sorry to hear about your recent setback with your health.  Diabetes is an odd disease to say the least.  I developed Type 2 in the early 1990's.  I thought that WLS would cure it, but unfortunately for me it did not.  I have to carefully watch all the carbs I eat every day -- not just the brownies is what I am trying to say.  In addition, I watch the caffine.  I don't have to take any meds as long as I do this.  The only exception is when I get sick or for some odd reason when I go to places in high elevations (New Mexico, Las Vegas, etc)  If I get the flu or something I can shot right up into the 200's. for a few days.   I echo the others who care about you and hope you will follow your doctor's advice and count all the carbs (not just the brownies). Hope to see you soon, CathyA

Thank you Cathy I appreciate everyone on here. You have brought up some things that I did not really know. I knew that carbs can have an effect on the sugar but it does make sense.  I am trying to find a 1800 cal low carb diet that will work for me. I am feeling better and better as time goes on. Going to go and get my nails done.

Good for you -- that always make me feel better too!