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I have 'chatted' with this great gal, Jenny R. She is a good motivator. Here is a link to her profile
http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/earmansgirl/
Ok, upon re-reading the list, I am actually failing at 8 out of the ten. The only 2 I've gotten right are #2 & #10. It's so hard to NOT get upset or not beat myself up for these failings. After all, nobody put a gun to my head, forced me to open my mouth, & then force fed me those so-called "comfort foods." Comfort food....what a cruel joke. They can't even be called that because where's the comfort when inevitably, after the damage has been done, is the comfort? Personally, I just wind up feeling guilty, ashamed, angry, sad, dissappointed, like a failure. Not my idea of comfort. I know that I've been struggling with depression for several weeks. Frankly, I thought I was over it. Apparently not. Because why else would I stop taking ANY of my meds, never mind just not taking vitamins, supplemets, & minerals? Why is it so hard to break the habit of drinking with meals? Apparently it CAN be done cuz I watched Jill & a several others at the post-OH event dinner order their meals without ordering a beverage. Why do I reach for the fritos, the M&Ms, the sour cream onion dip? Why do I allow myself to get "too busy" to remember to drink enough water in a day. I mean for heaven's sake, I even bought me a gallon jug to carry around! Why do I graze at night? I know I have a legitimate reason for not working out as much as some of ya'll do, but I could still step it up more than I have. I thought I had a handle on the carbs thing but obviously not if I'm grazing on fritos or sneaking bites of hashbrowns, or justifying having fries just because it's the kiddie size & I have left over calories for that day that haven't been used. Heck, I don't even know how many calories I'm SUPPOSED to be consuming. And last but not least, I'm drinking soda!! Why??? I went for months without it. So why am I sabotaging myself? What's my payoff? How's this all working FOR me? I feel like such a hypocrit, coming here & giving advice when I can't even do it for myself. What's the old saying?....people who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones? Yes, I have an appt to see my Nut. followed by Dr. Mo, but that's not for a couple more weeks yet. So how do I get through this in the interim? Nancy, in spite of rantings, I really am glad you posted this. Like I said...it shocked me, but obviously a shock I needed. I just wish I had the answers to my burning questions. I wish I didn't feel so bad about myself right now. At this moment all I can see is failure & I don't know WHY!!! Sigh.
Ann honey please do not beat yourself about this We are definitely all human and even though we have had WLS or lapband, that does not make us a Superwoman hero. Now that you have pointed out your faults and are accountable for them, blow that dust off and get right back up there. I know you can do it. You have come too far to turn back now. Tomorrow is a new day. If there is anything I can do to help just let me know, and you already know that his whole board is here to help you.
I hope I get the lovely opportunity to meet you one day. Many big HUGGGGSSSSS.