What Do You Believe?

Sporty Jill
on 5/11/08 10:01 pm, edited 5/11/08 10:04 pm - Norfolk, VA
Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do. - John Wooden, Hall of Fame college basketball coach When was the last time you stepped back and said "You are a awesome at [fill in the blank]".  For many of us, that is something that we do not do.  Heck we can't even take a compliment from someone else, let alone one from ourselves.  (I know...feels arrogant when we do). At 265 pounds, and many years of yo-yo failures (in my mind, there were failures because I never succeeded) left my self esteem pretty much in the toilet.  In my mind, the only thing that I was good at was failing at my weight, and this challenge began to define me. I did not look beyond that to see that I actually was a pretty talented person.  I just needed to believe in myself, like everyone else did.  I needed to see the things in myself that other people saw in me. Since surgery, I have found that I love adventure.  Hiking, mountain biking, whitewater rafting...I love it all, and I'm good at it.  Since surgery, I have found that I am pretty creative.  I create the most beautiful scrapbook pages and albums for friends and family.  Since surgery, I have found that I am a really good photographer.  I take the most beautiful pictures of nature, my dogs, and my family.  I always have a camera in my hand.  Since surgery, I have found that I am really smart.  My mind has become more expanded and tuned into the world around me.  Since surgery, I have found that I have more style.  I can actually pull off many of the styles seen int he magazines and even create a few of my own.  Since surgery, I have found that I am sexy and attractive.  Since surgery, I have found that I am more outgoing, really funny, and enjoy being around people.  Since surgery, I have found that I am a great friend to my friends. So..how did my surgery suddenly make me good at all of these different things?  I mean, there are alot of things here that I am suddenly good at.  How can that be? It wasn't the surgery itself, but the confidence that came with it.  Because I spent years obsessing over "Obese Jill", I was unable to see who Jill really was....the Jill that everyone else saw.  But, once I began losing the weight I no longer had the walls obstructing my view.  Once I was able to see beyond the boundary of my weight, I was able to see the potential and possiblies of Jill.   Today, I am beginning to see who I am and want to be.  I know that I will never have photos hanging in a museum, never create world peace, never be a stand up comic, (ok...for money - haha),  walk down the runway in Paris, or write the great American novel, and this is ok with me, but I do know that I have the confidence to look at myself in the same view everyone else looks at me and without thinking I am being arrogant or unworthy of their compliments.   So, today, look within yourself to find the talent you were born with.  We all have them, we just need to find and develop them. What do you do that gets you the most compliments?  What comes easy for you?  What do you enjoy doing?  That is where you want to be....not in the barrier.

     Certified Personal Trainer
                             
"I'm tough, ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. if that makes me a bitch, okay." - Madonna
Beginning Weight: 265  Current Weight:143 
So I run like a Girl....now keep up! 


Ms Court
on 5/11/08 10:50 pm - Remington, VA
VAVAVAVOOM!!!!!  Love the new pic!!!!!

Courtney  305/155/150/225 high/goal/low/current 
**The devil has put a penalty on all things we enjoy in life.  Either we suffer in health or we suffer in soul or we get fat...Albert Einstein ** 

          

    

Lauren B
on 5/12/08 8:41 am - VA

I'm very abitious when it comes to my career.  My parents taught me that you have to achieve what you get in life through hard work, not be given it.  Although I had everything I ever needed as an only child, I learned the value of making my own money and having my own things to be proud of very young.  I have worked since I was 15, and had paper route years before that.  I worked PT every weekend until I graduated, did one year of college, and then worked fulltime since, even finally graduating while working full time.  I bought my first house by myself when I was only 22. Some of you know, I work in construction.  It's a field that is primarily men, and I have to work extra hard to prove myself and get appreciation in the field.  It's just the way it is.  But I wouldn't have it any other way.  I feel very rewarded by the challenge.  I just want to learn.  More and more.  It's taken me about 10 years to get to this place and it feels damn good!   I would say I get the most compliments at work.  Not to be toot my own horn, but I work hard, they know it and they appreciate me for it.  It's so great to work at a place that not only offers a rewarding career with all the perks, but gives you the admiration along the way.  They know how dedicated I am and treat me well because of it.  Don't get me wrong, it's hard work, and sometimes I wonder with all the hours how the heck I'm going to have kids one day, but I guess we'll just work it out, because it's just the perfect match for me.  I'm good at what I do, and work is the only thing I'm really proud to stand up and say so! Lately, related to weightloss, people are giving me more physical compliments.  I'm not the best at receiving them, never was, but try and just be happy that people see who I am - a beautiful person inside AND out.  :) I'm so happy that I'm feeling more comfortable in my own skin and that my barrier is whiddling away.  It definately helps my self esteem.  I'm working on smiling when people do pay me compliments and saything THANK YOU! :) 

369/175/136
Highest Weight/Goal/Current Weight
233lbs LOST!!
Maintenance going strong!

 

 

 

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