Merry Christmas to All and update on me!!

I am trying to adjust to the alone lifestyle. Still has ups and downs. If I can get the depression under control will be great. Going to counseling and drs regularlly to try and get meds and diagnosis straight. I really want to return to work. Reduced pay is another adjustment I am trying to learn to deal with. Time will only help that. Thanks for all the prayers and keep them coming. I am dreading being at home alone after the get togethers that will run me to death. Putting up w/ some people for 3 days in a row will be hard. Thanks God I can run off except for the one at my own house. Hope everyone else has a great Christmas. I am praying for all those others w/ health problems too. Best wishes to those w/ upcoming surgeries. I would do it again tommorrow. I think alot of my issues are from not being able to stuff my face to numb pain of issues that have been there all along. Sure some of you can relate. Really trying to focus so I dont mess up what I have worked so hard for. Keep chugging along! Love and Hugs Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!! Shannon

Hello Shannon, I've thought about you these last few weeks, and hoped you were doing well. It is an adjustment, everything you are going through, but you'll make it you're a strong girl. And Christmas is always so stressful with all the parties, family, and just the busy time of the year. It's my favorite time, and my most stressful time. We aren't going to San Diego this year which totally bummed me out in one sense, but in another it was one less thing to deal with - - finding a housesitter, reservations, all that stuff. Anyway, you are looking lovely honey, and just look at Natalie, and how she went through her divorce and then found her prince charming and now is getting married! That's out there for you, too. Love to you Shannon, donna

Merry Christmas to you and hang in there you will be fine.

Shannon , You can do this . I too have been experiencing adjusting to my meds , and it is hard . This is not the best time of year for us , but you can do it . Just keep your eye on the prize and that prize is you and your goals . You have done so wonderful and I know that you have it in you to see this through. When you feel the urge to numb with food .. do it .. but do it with something good for you . When I am feeling blue .. I go and get me some snow peas .. and ranch dressing ... I am a dipper .. and ... dunking a few of this sweet babies normally does the trick for me .. or I get an orange .. or fruit .. you can do this .. food is not the enemy here .. it is how we perceive it .. and how we use it ... Try and take your negitive thoughts or the thoughts that bring you down and wash them away with a good brisk walk .. or some yoga .. or mediation .. or best yet .. prayer ... I swear the walkng works wonders to get rid of anxiety . I wish there was more I could say to you . Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers . Hugs, Natalie