REALLY SAD TODAY

Hey guys, well today wouldve been my mothers 57th bday if she was still with me today..... I lost her on March 31st, 1989....... The sad thing is I would lie to everybody about how she died.....My mother was an aloholic.....The doctors told her to stop because her liver was slowly serteroating and she haxd scerolisis(sp) of the liver......But she never did....My dad was mad at her for her drinking and hving me in that enviroment (they were divorced since I was 5) she remarried to my another man who drank and she bagan to drink too....She got pregnant with my brother and she did not drink when she was pregnant..... Well one night she got up to go to bed ans she collapsed.....My brother heard her fall and got my stepdad up and they ambulance came and they took her away....Befor ethe took her to the hospital they try to revive her for a while.... She was doa when she arrived at the hopital.... The weird thing is I was dreaming about her and my brother and me that night.....................It was snowing outside and we were living in jacksonville, florida at this time... (I was a navy brat).....Well I think the dream was telling me that she was at peace and saying goodbye to me..... Welllll 2 days before christmas it snowed ....You know it harldey ecer snows in florida..... I think that was her saying everything was ok and she was at peace.... Welll I am going to end this before I start crying because I stll miss her so much...I often wonder how my life wouldve been different if she was here still with me.... Its been 17 yrs now but I will never forget her she was my life....And taught me so much in those 15 years she had with me.... Hugs renea

I am sorry to hear of your continued pain relating to your mom's death. Sitting here at home for almost 3 weeks has me thinking entirely too much about losses. Thank goodness for the time you had with her. Hugs, Lois

Renea my thoughts and prayers are with you. Keep those good memories alive and know that she is at peace. I have a feeling she has been with you all along these 17 years. Courtney

Renea, I am so sorry for your sadness today, but I have to tell you that in spite of the problems your mom had in her life, you have such a sweet love for her. I always hope that when I die my daughters will remember the good and forget the bad things about me!! Renea, why don't you spend as much as you can today thinking about all the positive things about your mom, all the good traits that you've inherited from her, how proud she would be of you and your boys. You're such a loving girl, I know that. And I know your mom is looking down at you now and just so proud of you. love donna

Prayers going your way I know how hard loosing a parent is. Hugssss See ya Sat.

Aww, Renea, I can sooo relate to your pain. My Mother was also an alcholic and we never really ever bonded so be thankful that you can remember the good times with her. My Mom was a mean drunk and we didn't have many good memories, only the nightmare ones. So many losses here on the board lately and alot of first Christmas's without their loved ones, my thoughts and prayers goes out to them this season and to all those who have to celebrate Christmas without a loved one. Love ya..Betsy

Renea, my heart goes out to you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am glad you were able to see her at peace. I know it does get hard on special days. Please take care of yourself. Anna