Better then yesterday.

Thank you to everyone who thought of me during this. someone asked on my earlier post if i had open or laproscopic.. it was laproscopic, right now i am able to walk around fine alittle slow and careful but fine, I can burp easier then last night now, I slept all night without a sleeping pill so thats a good thing, propped up on my sofa chair, i took a pain pill before bed and it worked all night. I know what the results of this surgery will be and I will completely LOVE them but during the hospital stay with the pain and discomfort please tell me I wasnt the only one who questioned what I did.... I heard it from my mom ' Well beth you know what you were in for" . The eating is completely different FOR NOW and i keep telling myself that it will not be forever. I ask this because during the hospital stay I laid there like a baby and just cried... maybe it was a mixture of all the drugs I was given and the emotional rollercoaster ride I was on. I feel alot better now then I did then. I just want to know I wasnt alone on those emotions. I even had a nurse ask me " what made you do this"? I just told her I was sick of over eating and being fat. well I tried my first unjury protein shake last night I can tolerate it its actually okay to drink...and oooh how i love the orange drink from crystal light.but each tiny sip makes me burp right now its not the best of feeling but its doable : )) last night i practiced my breathing on that toy they gave me i got it to my goal 1250 so thats good. well i am going to take a pain pill have someone make me a shake and go sit down and watch a movie.. i will be back later to check posts take care all Beth

i remember those days, I hope your feeling better. I really didnt care if I was fat but i did worry about longetvity, fitting in seats, and mobility. I knew if I didnt have the surgury I would gain 10lbs a year until I was i guess trapped by my body. So I took the leap of faith, it pays off. I still wonder how I got to this and what the heck am I doing, but it gets better

Beth- You're doing great....very normal to have those thoughts. And don't forget that the drugs they gave you coupled with your rapid weight loss will do a doozie on your horomones. My first month was a rollercoaster of emotions..to the point I thought I was going crazy at times (bless my husband for putting up with me!). Just keep doing what you're supposed to and I promise it gets easier and better. Welcome to the losing bench...we're glad you're here. Christina S

Beth it is naural to question what you have done and wonder if you can go through with it. I had a mild panic attack after surgery wondering if I could do this and had I done the right thing? It did not last long and I am happy to say I would do it again in aheartbeat. The pain does subside and once you come off the pain med altogether you will also start to feel much better. Your head will clear and you can think clearly and positively again. You are doing just fine! Lean on us for any little worries you may have. We will all have had the same one way or another. And sometimes it just helps when people say it is normal. Take care and glad you are now "one if us". You have no idea how much I wanted to be one of "you" before surgery!! lol! Jackie

Beth, I am so glad you are doing better today. I am sure I will feel the same thing when I am there. Waaaaaaa.... hehe I want to be "one of you too". Anna