Need a pick me up from the veterans.

Hi I am sure you have seen me lurking in here a month or so... well I am on my last few days and wedesday I officially become a big loser. This is the first day I got sad... I know its a roller coaster ride but I didnt expect to cry. For 38 yrs I have eaten what I want when I want without thought.. well some but I still ate it. Now my whole way of thinking my life will change. I know its for the better, I want and need this but did any of you get sad? For instance I am cooking a full blown thanksgiving dinner tomorrow for me because I will miss it on thanksgiving. so my kids and hubby will have 2 dinners but mine is tomorrow LOL my oldest daughter asked me today " Mom what do you wanna do today? " and I was looking inside the freezer and i said I want to eat LOL of course i was kinda joking, but i baked a carrot cake and a pumpkin pie for tomorrow and whipped up some shrimp LOL I guess becuz i know it will be a very long time before i eat the things i will miss. I will not miss the sweets i have never really been into sweets. Later I found myself in the rest room crying so no one would see me.. but i snapped out of it and went out into the living room. Ok yea I am nervous. its the unknown I am worried over. I remember feeling the exact same way when I went in for my tummy tuck. it was the pain I worried over.. this time its the eating. Please tell me Im not alone here.. i know Im not but it would be nice to hear im not ... Thank you Beth

Hi Beth, There was a girl on Oprah the other day that had WLS and had gone from 300 to 150, or something like that. She was young and pretty, but she said she cried every day for the first 3 months after surgery. Her reason was that she missed food. It had been her friend for so long. I am still hoping and praying for approval, but I already have some of your same feelings. I will miss food, I will miss the social aspect of having a big meal with family or friends. It makes me sad to think that I can't drive thru McDonalds for a Big Mac meal. But, it makes me even sadder to be my current weight. My suggestion is to "feel your saddness"... allow yourself to mourn a little bit. You are saying good bye to the "you" that has been around for a long time, and the unknown can be frighening. Writing in my journal helps me. I have a list written of all the things I will miss, but I have a much longer list written out of all the things I am looking forward to. I think it is great that you are having an early Thanksgiving dinner. Enjoy every bite of it. Best wishes! Kim

Beth ... oH Beth .. you sound so much like I did pre-surgery .. but guess what .. all those emotions you are having will be a memory soon . Many people that are preparing for surgery begin to mourn their friend food . I was so so scared that I would never be able to eat again .. so I too went out and cooked and ate everything I could . Hell .. I ate almost 3 pounds of shrimp in one sitting .. and needless to say now , I still eat shrimp .. just not 3 pounds . It is good you are doing this .. and to me it is healthy .. but I need for you to look into the future with me .. A year from now .. you will be still be eating , you will be thinner .. and the only real difference in the food is that you will be eating healthier .. choices change .. but guess what .. that pumpkin pie you made , you will still be able to make it and eat it .. just SF and less fat .. and all the other great foods , you can alter them for your lifestyle . One thing I firmly believe in is taste .. and I make no wholes about it .. while I have lost 200 pounds and am maintaining it .. I eat the things I like , I just modify them to suit my lifestyle now . No I can not eat surgar , rice or pasta .. these things are what caused me to gain up to 325.. but I have found greater friends in food , such as tuna , mahi .. shrimp .. scallops .. salads .. soups .. sf deserts .. I am so happy with this lifestyle . I signed up for this , and by God noting .. no food will ever rule me again .. I rule it .. and I am in control .. and it is the greatest feeling in the world . Best wishes to you .. Natalie

Beth, I am right there with you.I go in for my surgry tuesday the 14th and I to have been on this emotional roller coaster.The thought of missing food I don't think has really crossed my mind(im sure it does but not in a way im noticing like,when im cheating on my pre-op),I have been dealing with more of the I fail at everything.As the previous post said right in a journal it does help.With the few days I have left my emotions have gotten worse and it doesn't help that aunt flow decided to visit me 4 days late so I'll have that for surgry as well and it adds ohh so much more to my emotions.The girls and guys here have such great words of wisdom, really take them in..Nats responce actually made me cry but in a good way cause it shows me they truley know where we are and they understand us 100%.Since I won't be around when you go in I wish you the best and I will see you on the loosing side. Hugs,Naomi

Beth - relax - we all went through so many emotions before surgery - it is fear of the unknown. Even after surgery I woke up and wondered what had I done? For a breif fleeting moment I felt a moment of fear. Then I told myself to relax and I knew I wanted this and I would be fine. You may find that you do not miss the food as much as you think as tastes change and your enjoyment of certain foods changes. You also have to remind yourself that you are not going to be deprived of food forever - you just won't be able to gorge yourself silly any more - and that is a good thing not a bad thing! You will be able to have shrimp soon again lol! Don't worry.... And many other foods. Immediately after surgery you won't even feel hungry and that lasts for a few weeks - you will find after eating half a scrambled agg and you are full lol!! It is natural to be scared and to shed a few tears. But you are dong something great for yourself and your family. You are going to get yourself healthy and be fit and around much longer for them! I was so scared before surgery and cried a few times. Some people cry all the way into the OR. It is natural and normal. Allow yourself to grieve the loss of your best friends. Good luck for Wednesday. Jackie

thank you all for your kind words it means alot and I know your all right, My family is so sweet today while cooking this thanksgiving meal lol my hubby said he will give up cookies and fast food for the next 3 months and my kids are giving up something they like... its cute cuz they know I will give up things.. its a new life style and I'm excited about the new self I will find. Im a skinny person stuck in this heavy shell not for long.... : ))) Beth

Hey Beth, Yes you will mourn your "best friend" FOOD!!! But you will make new friends that will make you feel so much better than any food you ever tasted. Things like being able to cross your legs, fitting in a close booth at a restaurant. Being able to stand and walk for hours without giving out and having to find a place to sit down. Shopping for new clothes and actually fitting in them and not leaving the store depressed but leaving with new outfits that look so cute you just can't wait to wear them out. I have gained so much from my surgery and you will too. Go through the process, grieve the food. But stick to the path once you are on it. You are going to do fine and it won't anytime at all before you are posting your before & after pictures. Lots of Love Kathy