MONDAY GRATEFUL POST

Good Morning all you BEAUTIFUL people on OH,

Not sure what was going on this AM....I tried for 3 hours to log on to OH and my computer kept freezing up.   I could get on other websites just not OH.    SO at this moment...I am grateful that I could finally get on here.    I've been thinking this AM ( that is dangerous sometimes....LOL ).   Life is what WE make it.   Our decisions decide most of the time where our destiny lies in our lives.    Anyone who knows me...knows I pretty much tell things like they are....no sugar coating things here.   This WLS journey is a HARD ONE !!!!  No easy way as some may say.  I struggle daily with decisions on foods to eat and I AM a stress eater.   Trust me...I am probably relate to ANYTHING that anyone is going through other than severe health issues.   Our journey is just that...it is OURS.    WE are the ones who determine how successful we are by what we choose to put into our bodies and what amount.   I am getting back on track today if you can't tell that by now.   I have made some not great choices with my eating due to stress in my life.   Today I am taking the wheel again and I WILL get this re-gain off.   It's not a HUGE regain....especailly for someone almost 8 yrs. out...it is 20 lbs.    20 lbs.  that makes me feel like a failure....I am a support group leader.....and I feel like a failure sometimes by the choices that I have made eating.    Can you tell I am NOT my normal self this AM>   I am praying very hard that I can go through the day without messing up.   I guess I have chose to let the stress rule my life and I am so sorry for all the bad choices that I have made.    I promise that I WILL DO BETTER.   Please keep me in your prayers.   It is HARD getting back on track and I know that I will be doing things that I don't want to do...such as walking on my treadmill already this AM.    OK...enough confessing my failures to you guys.   I love and respect all of you and i know some of you out there are just like ME !!! Struggling to get back on track.....well I am here to tell you that our "tool of choice" STILL WORKS !!!!  We all can do this.   Today I am grateful that I woke up with this attitude of gratitude.  Grateful for life itself even as dysfunctional as it might me.   Grateful for this lifesaving WLS...and the fact that I CAN get back on track and loose the weight that I have gained due to stress that I let get to me.   Grateful that I have decided not to give excuses anymore for my re-gain.    Grateful for the decision i made to "get real" with you about life after WLS not being perfect and that you WILL struggle.    Grateful for Obesity Help and all the encourage and support on here.   Hopefully in a few days I will be posting that I am grateful that the weight is down.     I pray by the first of the year ( hopefully ) that 20 lbs. will be gone.    And those of you who are newbies and thinking 20 lbs. is nothing.....YES it truly is.....the farther out from WLS...the harder it is to come off....and at 60 yrs. old it is a major struggle because of my metabolism being almost almost non functional.    Still I am grateful to be healthy and still a normal size person.   PLEASE forgive me for my ramblng today,   Grateful that you read this today and if I can HELP any of you please let me know.    PLEASE share if you will what you are grateful for today and I am sorry I had such a long post.    Have a blessed and amazing day !!!

Hugs and blessings ~~~ Vivian