Its is me Michelle

Hell everyone... it has been a while since i posted but i do still read often... Let me say congrats to all of you who on are the losing side now and are doing so well.... all of you.. I am gald fort he rest of you who have completed your pre op stuff and are waiting on surgery.... As for me well i am still just hanging out.... I see my PCP on Tues to start my 6 month diet so we will see where that goes.... I had stated at my drs office last month when i got turned down and then i received a letter from intracorp stating my surgeon or any other wls surgeon could not do my 6 month diet plan thing....So now i will be starting over. I have deciede to go ahead and just do the freakiin think while i decid on fighting it or not... Then i say hell just do it and get that part out of the way... at least it will give me a chance to come up with the money i need upfront(thanks Dawn) I read Dawns post about that nad i know i have to do the same...except no one has told me that yet...so i will try and get a jump on them... I have really started trying to change what i eat...I was having that last supper syndrome and put on about 15 pounds since may... So i have cut out soda and most sugar and i have lost about 5 pounds yipppie.....yeah what ever like 5 matters when you have 150 to loose. I know i am just continuing to set my self up for failure again as usual.... Why can i not just control my freaking hand to mouth disease??? maybe i need to go to a shrink and find out if i have hidden issues...... Oh well i just wanted to update and say hey to everyone Michelle

Michelle, I know that feeling of "whats 5 when there's a gazillion more to follow" and then you go to the doctor after a month of "oh, I can't have that and I can't have that, and oh, there's another one I CAN'T HAVE" and you follow the "plan" as best you can and eat styrofoam for a month (yea right, pour some all natural peanut butter on it, THAT will make it taste just yummy, , RIGHT) and then viola, you loose a freakin pound. And all the size 8 Barbie nurses jump up and down rallying about how wonderful you're doing and "see, it isn't THAT hard is it?" OH MY GOSH... I hope it will all go quickly for ya hon. Try and keep busy, that's about the only advice I can pass along. Know that your cyber buddies are here for ya... Hugs, Carol

Carol you got me cracking up...that is exactly how i feeel.......I think it is so weird how we all go through the same things... Michelle

Hi Michelle, Because I smoke, I understand the hand to mouth issue. To help me cut back to quitting, I went and bought some diabetic hard candy. It's sugar free and very good tasting, especially the choco. Mint. I know the frustration of losing when you have so much more. But hey, look at it this way, once you have the surgery, those 5lbs are already gone and less you will have to lose after surgery. Just losing that much is hard for an obese person. And you did it. One day at a time, sweetie, and remember the golden rule, all good things come to those who wait. Focus on the big reward, I know you will be able to do it. Love ya, Kathy