I want to cry...

My cousin and his girlfriend (the one who's friend made fun of me because of my size) invited me to go out with them tonight to see a movie and get a bite to eat. They kept on and on asking and begging me to go with them. I had to keep saying NO. I wanted so badly to go and see the movie they are going to see. I wanted to see it ever since I knew that it was coming out. If it wasn't for this stupid fat I would be able to go with them. But I won't fit in the darned seats at the movie theater. I couldn't exactly muster up the courage to tell them why I couldn't go. They are little skinny beanpoles...they would never understand. I can't wait until I have the surgery date. One day things won't be so bad anymore. Thanks for listening. Julie

Julie, Trust me, kiddo I can totally relate. I spent a lot of time avoiding a lot of stuff because of my size. Things like: I would have to walk to far I would have to worry if I could fit in a seat or if they had tables and not just booths Worrying about having to sit down frequently because of being out of breath and my hips and back hurting and being embarassed to ask someone to stop so much. Always feeling that I couldn't go anywhere as I would stand out. Avoiding doing things I really wanted for excuses that were attributes to my size whether they were real or just my mind running away with worry. Hopefully these things will not be considerations as we all get healthier! But I totally get ya! It's really hard to admit to things like that as it's sorta admitting it to yourself out loud and makes the sting of hurtfulness even worse. But just know that it's all ok. Most all of us have experienced these same feelings and been in the same boat ourselves, so you're not alone. I am just one month post-op but already feel a good deal better physically as well as emotionally. Keep us updated and we'll make sure that we save you a spot on the loser's bench. I wish ya the best of luck on your journey!

Julie...you are a better woman than me. After they had made fun of you, I would simply have told them that I had better things to do with my time than to spend it with cruel and insensitive people. Please, do not put yourself in the postition of having to endure their childish tormenting and ridicule again. You deserve so much more than what they have to offer you. And remember, your cousin is just as guilt as the girlfriend if he did not speak up for you. And for going to a movie.... how about a drive in? Is there one in your area? I went to one recently and had a blast--I did not even know there was one in our area until I accidently found it in the newspaper and I went that night to enjoy a movie in the comfort of my on car. Hang in there kid...you are on the road to being a surgical success!

Hiya Julie hon. You're right about one thing, some day soon it wont be that way. You keep your chin up sweetie. Its just a matter of time. Who ever designed those stupid seats had one thing in mind... how to fit the maximum # of people in the room. The answer is to make the seats close together. I hate bathroom stalls. I'm so sick of bruising my arms on the damn tampon boxes and toilet paper holders. Yet I feel guilty if I use the handicapped stall. I always think, what if a real handicapped person comes in and really needs it, and i'm in there cause i'm fat. Anyway.... lol. Hang in there hon. Your day is coming! God bless ya sweetie! Melanie

Oh, Julie sweetie. It's gonna be ok. I know how you feel. I hate airplanes because I have to ask for the extension for the seat belt and everyone always looks funny at me when I do. I get sympathetic looks from the stewardesses. I can't wait until this fat is gone.....I'm with ya honey.....It's gonna be ok...