Demon Chocolate
Many thanks,
Rebecca ("Trianni")
Hi Rebecca,
It is really good to see you back. I admire your persistence and “can do" attitude. Those are attributes that are rare and ones that show that you will succeed at this. There is hope and please do not forget that…..
Addiction to chocolate is probably a chord of familiarity that you will strike the most with many of us on this forum. Is it the chocolate or is it the sugar? That platform has been and will continue to be an open end discussion for many.
The one thing I can tell you for sure is that it is a process Rebecca. As painful as it is to hear, there are no quick easy fixes and no tradeoffs or substitutions if you will…..
To be successful at weight loss surgery one comes to learn that things have to change or be different. If we keep doing things the way we always do them then things are never going to change. Change is difficult.. Change hurts… Believe me, I live on the corner or Hurt Rd. and Pain Avenue….
That change for me had to be “how" to live on real food… and a huge factor in that was to learn how to “not" let the food rule me… each and every day I have to make it work for me… not the other way around… Trust me… that task is not for the weak….
However, I have managed to come out on this side of those “dead end" roads. And as painful as the last 5 years have been for me since having weight loss surgery, I seem to have come out on the good side. I gauge that success by, no more high blood pressure, no more sleep apnea, no more diabetes, no more inflamed joint knee and back pain that was so crippling I could not stand the thought of getting out of bed…And losing 165 pounds in the process was not too shabby either.
This is probably more than you bargained for when you asked a question about chocolate but I could sense something much deeper than chocolate….
Rebecca, there is no doubt in my mind that you can do this… Trust me…. If I can do this ANYBODY can…..
If you need a lift or boost when you want some chocolate just keep going to the Obesity Help before and after pictures…. That always helped me.
Thank you for the encouraging words. I really appreciate them more than I can say. I've been doing as you suggested and looking at the before and after pictures (including yours). They probably do more to motivate me than anything. They prove that getting healthy CAN be done if one is willing to reach for it.
As for the chocolate, I think its two things: the caffeine and the chemical "high" that I get from it. If it were sugar then just about any sweet thing would satisfy but it doesn't.
I have an appointment coming up on 2/28 with the new weight loss clinic. I've already been to their seminar and met with the surgeon. Now the rubber hits the road after I meet with the nurse and patient advocate. I've been working toward having surgery for three years without even submitting for insurance. Something tells me that with this clinic things are going to be very different. But, maybe its happening because I am finally ready to do it. I don't think its a coincidence that my therapy has been moving very fast all of a sudden, either. It's like a giant boulder has been shoved from my path and I'm no longer being held back.
Thank you again, Tina, for your support. Hope you have a great rest of the week!
Rebecca
