Long Road Back
I had a falling out in January with my surgeon when he refused to see me (I had gained a few pounds for the first time in a year of visits). I flew mad and dropped out of the program then spent the next five months licking my wounds, at first, then doing a lot of heart searching. In the end I realized that he and my psychologist were right all along. I wasn't committed to making the changes necessary for success because I was doing it all for the wrong reasons (Mostly I was trying to honor my mother's dying wish). More heart searching told me that I really, truly didn't believe I could lose my 160 lbs of excess weight and keep it off without surgery AND a major overhaul in my thinking. So I'm back with my psychologist and with the clinic, working hard to overcome my fears that are rooted in giving up food as a crutch and losing the weight I use as a defense mechanism. It's something I have to do if I want to live, let alone live a rewarding life. Tomorrow I go for my second seminar, a requirement since I dropped out of the program, and then I'm told it's all up to me and my psychologist to let them know when I'm ready. Wish me luck!
Rebecca
I hope you can get to that place where the only person or thing that matters regarding your weight and health is you. Everything else will fall into place.
Good luck to you on this incredible journey!
