HELP NEEDED I am going to TRY and get back on track!!!

WOW, I am overwhelmed with all the support that my post has been given by both those that know me and those that do not.   I got on the scale today for the first time in a while and lets just say I was not surprised at all with the results, I have my work cut out for me, that is for sure.  One thing I do know is that I have to get this back, I have come too far before to not fight back, I only wish that I had done it sooner.  One piece of advice to everyone out there, do not do as I did and isolate yourself when you are not doing well and/or depressed, it is hard, but it is the worse thing you can do to yourself both physically and mentally, TRUST ME, I know from experience.  I have had those that just would not give up on me, even when I had given up on myself,  Lately, I have felt like I was the one that this surgery did not work on, except temporally.  However, with a lot of thought lately, I have realized that the surgery did not give up on me, I gave up on it. That is hard to admit, especially since I said on numerous occasions that I would NEVER gain the weight IF I ever lost it, well I sure have ate those words.  I thought that the hardest part was losing the weight initially, however reality is that the hardest part for me has been to maintain the loss, regardless of what stress and/or medications are placed in my path.  I have a long battle to go to get the weight that I have gained off, but I am going to do it and I am going to be there for those that need me too.  Who knows maybe I am not the only Veteran that is going through this same problem, maybe me sharing and finally admitting I need help will provoke others that need help to come forward together!!   Thanks for all your posts, I sat here at my desk and just cried when I started getting posts within 10 minutes of me posting, because I did not realize that TRUE SUPPORT was there for me even after I messed up so badly!!!!

Love You All!!
Shelia

Sheila, it is very good to see you post, your smile and presence have been greatly missed.

When I first began my WLS journey I approached my trek in the same fashion as I tend to do most things in my life, which is I want it quick, I want it all and I want it right. I thought I could learn all I needed to know about this stuff in just a few short weeks. What I didn’t see coming was that I had become engaged to a life long process. WTF??? Basically I set out to get rid of a couple of co-morbid issues I had developed, get skinny and then I would be on my merry way. However, what I learned, and am still learning is that I am in a process that can’t be rushed. I can’t rush or move to the next stage too soon. Sort of like a car traveling on a winding road, I can only see as far ahead as the next curve or bend in the road. 

I am also learning that when I take out my Big Chief note book and writing instrument to start writing down all the things I think I know about this WOL I have to remember to use my number 2 lead pencil with the large eraser affixed to the top as opposed to the big thick lined black ink Sharpie that I have been using. It makes it much easer to erase my mistakes and move on as opposed to seeing them glare at me day in and day out in large black bold letters.

I believe in you.

 

Like the wonderful folks listed above me and the beautiful lady I'm talk'n to, honey you can do this. I know it's hard. But we are here if you need to even pm some of us. your are wonderful ,beautiful and one of god's creations, as well as one of our sisters, what you are saying or do'n we've been there , you were there for us and  now it is our turn for us to be there for you but only if you let us........ .

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Luv ya Barb

Sheila. So glad to see ya girl I know how ya fell.   Love ya Sue

Hello darlin'

Good to see you!  I know what a struggle this can be.  I agree with everything everyone else has said.  I think you hit the nail on the head when you said you isolated yourself when you started having problems.  That's exactly what I wanted to do.  But, I forced myself not to.  In fact, I came here more, and I started a support group at my local hospital.  I really encourage you to go to real LIVE support.  It is the best thing you can do.  Oh, and decarb.  Sucks, but has to to be done.   I still struggle mightily with emotional eating, especially right now.  Love you hon.