what's it gonna take?
i've struggled from day one with looking in the mirror and still seeing the morbidly obese chick looking back at me. i see the difference in side by side pics but have always struggled with the mirror. But I had began making improvements on that.
In fact, recently, I was like, "look at that curve" and was making progress. Once I got under 200 lbs, it was even better (not perfect but an improvement!). This morning i saw a picture of me taken on April 21st and I was appalled. I had lost about 125 at that point and i was still the largest girl in the pic. I have not stopped thinking about that.
Everytime I make progress, something like this sets me back 3 paces. I want to lose the negativity!! grrr...i'm known by my coworkers and friends as the upbeat positive, easy-going one but in the facet of my life, its a real struggle.
How do you deal with this?
In fact, recently, I was like, "look at that curve" and was making progress. Once I got under 200 lbs, it was even better (not perfect but an improvement!). This morning i saw a picture of me taken on April 21st and I was appalled. I had lost about 125 at that point and i was still the largest girl in the pic. I have not stopped thinking about that.
Everytime I make progress, something like this sets me back 3 paces. I want to lose the negativity!! grrr...i'm known by my coworkers and friends as the upbeat positive, easy-going one but in the facet of my life, its a real struggle.
How do you deal with this?
Be happy.
Me too. I'm only half way to my goal. I know there is a difference. I bought a pair of size 14 pants yesterday (elastic waist) and they fit just fine. I was wearing a 22 or 24. My top size has gone from 3x to XL in most things. there is defiantly a difference!
I think it is because we are the same person on the inside. I have always said that "fatafobia" was the problem of the person that had a problem with us, not what we were to ourselves, because we would be the same on the inside if we were 6x or size 2.
I think that after awhile the shame that we feel because of the reaction or perceived reaction of others to us, just rubs off on us. I am beginning to believe that the hardest part of this journey is going to be getting rid of years of low self esteem. That weighs more than all our pounds put together.
I have always said I'm glad God made me smart instead of pretty. I would really rather be ugly than stupid. Now I am going to have to accept the fact that I can be smart and attractive too! Won't that be the bomb! I hope I never in my life look at another person and assume the worst of them just because of a physical appearance. I never want to be that kind of person EVER!
Still working on accepting myself as being (in the looks department) OK no matter what size.I am. I think that is the trick!
Just sayin'. that's my opinion, for what it's worth.
I think it is because we are the same person on the inside. I have always said that "fatafobia" was the problem of the person that had a problem with us, not what we were to ourselves, because we would be the same on the inside if we were 6x or size 2.
I think that after awhile the shame that we feel because of the reaction or perceived reaction of others to us, just rubs off on us. I am beginning to believe that the hardest part of this journey is going to be getting rid of years of low self esteem. That weighs more than all our pounds put together.
I have always said I'm glad God made me smart instead of pretty. I would really rather be ugly than stupid. Now I am going to have to accept the fact that I can be smart and attractive too! Won't that be the bomb! I hope I never in my life look at another person and assume the worst of them just because of a physical appearance. I never want to be that kind of person EVER!
Still working on accepting myself as being (in the looks department) OK no matter what size.I am. I think that is the trick!
Just sayin'. that's my opinion, for what it's worth.
HW/297 SW/265 CW/206 GW/165 Lowest Weight 171 (12-09)
...I have great news for you....you ALREADY ARE SMART & ATTRACTIVE!!! AND...YOU ARE THE BOMB!!!!!!
Let all that old negativitiy go (everyone...) You guys, just think how far you have come & how much better it is than where you were. Gain self esteem by realizing that you made the decision to change your life, for the better, and then you followed through w/that decision!
Preop Weight 293/SW 289/CW 202.3/GW 165/LW158
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