Like sands through the hourglass...

Scott my friend, I can appreciate some of what you are going through. I however did not have the patience and finally gave up and did the self pay route. My wife oftentimes takes the blunt of any negative feelings I have and it is because she loves me so much and I know it is unconditional and it is like sometimes she almost allows it to save me from making a fool of myself. I am not abusive but I think you understand my point. You have a tremendous support group around you starting with your wife and RJ. The rest of us are here for you as well. Sending prayers up for you today brother.

Thanks for the support guys!  I love and care about you, more than you could ever know!  It's rough, but I'ma hanging.  By posting yesterday, It has actually opened my eyes to how I am treating RJ and Beth.  Yes they love me unconditionally, but I still need to be carefull!  Anyway, thanks for the love and support you guys give!  I think I will sneak by for a lite lunch on Saturday, and then head to the game!