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I haven't left y'all, just mostly lurking and praying for you.  I have to sit on the floor to see the monitor as I have no furniture for a couple more weeks.  With three bulging disks in my neck it's been very painful to sit on the tile and try and type.  I had tubes put back in my ears last week, they are still bleeding, and the pressure if I move my neck to look down, makes me queasy and very dizzy.  I have a mass on my liver that showed up after having 7 Ct. scans on my pancreas to find out why I was getting so sick all the time, plus a MRI. Today I had to have an Echo done on the heart, the chemo is causing my organs to become calcified.  The Pancreas is full of calcifications.  They don't know what this mass is on the liver, I will under go a certain ultra sound on Monday.  They wanted to do it this week, but it was for 4pm and no eating or drinking for 8 hours.  No way.  So it's scheduled for Monday the 27th at 7:30 am.  Then the Dr. will decide if a liver biopsy is needed.  He's already leaning that way because I stay so sick to my stomach.  I am on two different medications for the nausea, plus suppositories.  I've been in and out of the ER 5 times since the end of June.  The test will determine if it's a cyst as in liquid form or a tumor if it's hard.  A cyst wouldn't make me this sick, but a tumor would.   I have two important requests to make, dad who has been cancer free now for 2 years is covered all over his bottom half with abcess boils.  The Va just keeps lancing them, and more pop out.  I told mom he need more iron after going thru the chemo.  He's 78 years old.   Second request, I have a ton of clothes here at my new apartment in Lebanon, sizes ranging all the way to 28's.  They have been in storage, and smell musty, but I don't have a washer or wash them.  Anyone interested, please contact me and I will give you an address.  They need to get out of my pantry. I am over drawn majorly at the bank, I have .55 to my name.  I went for help for food, they gave me mostly can goods, I had to borrow a can opener.  They said there was powdered milk in the box, but there was none when I got home.  Remeber I can't take my medications without milk or the chemo pills will cause errosions in my pouch.  Most of the stuff they gave me, like Roman noodles, 3 different things of hot spicy chile, I told the lady that I had stomach surgery and couldn't eat pastas, spicy foods, and that's what she gave me the most.  I have to go back on Wednesday. There's so much going on right now, that it's hard to get it all in.  Just know that if I don't post for a few days, that I haven't left you.  I'm just dealing with a lot on my plate right now.  I love each and everyone of you, and miss you terribly. 

You all are in my prayers.  So if you don't see me posting, please pray that I am having a fair day and not a bad one.  Thanks. 

Bless your heart Kathy. I am keeping you in my prayers. Hugs Ellen

thank you Ellan and back to you always. 

Hey Kathy, I don't know if this will help, but we use quite often.  It's a place called "Angel Food Ministries".  there are several locations in and around Nashville.  The premise is, you order your food 2-3 weeks in advance, and pick it up on the assigned day.  You get a box of food for  $25.  If you bought all of it at the store, you would be charged $80-$100.  I like the program and it has helped out several families that I know.  The link is below: Angel Food Ministries I know you said you were overdrawn at the bank, but maybe this could help out in the future! Have a good week!  And know one thing..."We Love You and are Praying for you!" Scott

Great Suggestion Scott. I used this sometimes too. Except they cancelled it at the church so I haven't gotten it in a while but that is a great suggestion. It is for anyone and not just people struggling either. It is a lot of food for $25 - I could not believe it. More than enough for just me and my husband.

thanks Scott, I know of them from living in Morristown.  They are in Jefferson City over there.  Only at the moment I am over drawn now %587 and I have .55 cents in my purse. I will have to try them after the first.  Again thanks. 

o my, i feel so bad for you, that is so much to have to go through,,i will remember you in a prayer and i hope the best for you...when you go back on wed., maybe the lady will get it right.., i would try the social services too..Any help you can get would be great right now.

Hi sherry, I think Department of Human Resources is Social Services isn't it?  The hottie next door said that on Saturday at 8 am this place is giving out free food, he says they really load you down.  He's going to find out where it is.  It's in Lebanon that's all I know.  I just hope it's something etible vs. just can goods.  But right now I would take anything.  Thank you, Kathy

hey,,,i think it is the same thing,,i'm not 100% sure though,,,,around here where i'm at they give out commodities every 3 months, i have to go to a place called southwest human resource agency, and they ask about how income i have and ss number, then they give me a card to show on commodity day,,,,it really comes in handy, i hope this helps out some,,,,,,i am pretty sure this is a statewide program , it would be worth checking into,,,,good luck, and say hi, to the hottie next door for me,,lol

The hottie just got home from work.  Told him he owes me a night of movies for walking across my yard.  LOL, yes we are interested in each other.  He's 43 to my 53 but we don't care.  I know about the commodities and will ask tomorrow when they do them, this thing on Saturday is totally different.  It's held thru a church.   Need to make me something to eat, so we can watch a movie later.  He's off the next two days so he's going to help me get one storage in Smyrna emptied out.  Most of that is my two seats from the van, winter clothing, and odds and ends.  I have enough storage space once the clothes that were given to me to pass on to everyone else gets out of my way.  Thanks for the suggestions.  They are appreciated.  Love