Honesty needed...no fussing!

The reason I ask for no fussing is because, trust me!!!!....I am doing enough of that on myself for a few dozen people...but here goes.  I had my six month checkup today...everything was terrific...I have lost 71% of my excess body weight...I am doing so much exercise that I was actually told I was doing too much and needed to pull back a bit.  So then, what possessed me to come home and proceed to have a carb frenzy?   I ate chips, pizza, cookies...pure crap, pure poison and so much like the old me...what is going on?  I know it was stupid, I am publicly recognizing that, that is the easy part, the hard part is trying to figure out why I did it.  I wasn't bored...I actually left company to go in the back and eat the cookies...like a little girl hiding in a closet or something.  I wasn't sad...this was a good day.  I wasn't angry, nothing to be angry at.  I wasn't even craving the crap until I ate the chips...the worst part is that it was only like five chips...I could have stopped.  Then it was a piece of thin crust pizza...but I still didn't stop...then I ate the cookies...Now I am trying to analyze and figure it out.  I don't want this to happen again.  So what I want to know from all you guys is...has this happened to you?  Have you found yourself doing this and if so, how did you stop from it happening again?  I have done too well to let it stop now but I realize that I have been letting too many carbs in over the last few weeks and I want to stop.  I need advice, tips, and yes, I need to know if this is something we all battle with. I never thought I would say this but I wish desperately that I dumped...but I don't.  I wish to God I had never found that out!    As always, thanks guys so much for your help.

Hi Kym, Glad you got a good report!  I'm just gonna throw something out there that popped into my head while I was reading your post.  I find myself doing this and I'm sure a lot of people with weight issues do the same.  It's a type of sabotage.  I have found myself doing this in the past.  If I was doing well with a diet or exercise program, and others start to notice, I then put on the brakes and start backsliding. I've also noticed I did this when I was given a bad diagnosis about my liver.  While sick last November, I lost 20 pounds.  I was able to keep it off until January, when my doctor told me I would die w/in ten years if I didn't get the weight off.  You'd think that would have scared me into doing the right thing, but NO!  I did just the opposite.   With getting good news, or results, I think it's either a sabotage or some part of our brain decides it's ok to celebrate.  And to our way of thinking, celebrate equates eating!   As for the too many carbs, I haven't experienced that since I haven't had carbs post-op.  But maybe you need to "re-detox" from carbs and start over with slowly introducing good carbs.  Just a thought! I understand about the dumping.  I have a fear of causing myself to dump, but I'm also afraid of finding out that I won't dump, for fear of eating stuff I shouldn't. That's my two cents; hope you can get something from it.  Good luck and hope to see you Saturday.

No fussin' here girl. I'm waiting for someone to come on here with the solution. The only thing I've found that helps me is to allow myself that occasional "food rant" and then put it behind me and move on. This is not something I do every day, every week, or even every month. When it does happen, as soon as the reality of it hits me (or my husband points it out to me) I make myself write down everything I have eaten during that blind frenzy, date it and stick it on the fridge. This reminds me of what I did, when I did it and how bad it was this time. I can say that the episodes have been farther apart and less damaging since I started doing this. We are not going to overcome our food demons as quickly as the weight comes off. I figure that is something I'm going to have to deal with for the rest of my life. Also, I do allow myself, and plan for, the occasional cookie...A COOKIE, not the entire package!

Susan, that is such a great idea...posting what I eat in plain view will surely help.  You are one of the ones I really, truly admire and I am not sure how to say this without it sounding like I want to hear of your "mess-ups", but since I do admire you so much, it helps to hear that you experience these lapses of sanity as well.  Knowing I'm not in the boat alone keeps me from feeling like a total failure!

  I don't feel like much of a role model. I am ashamed that I don't exercise as I should. You, April and Shelia are my idols in your dedication to your exercise program.

Kym not sure if you remember my little "experience" with the carb monster.  It all started with some Dreamfields Lasagna noodles.  Gosh I ate eveything for two days that I could possibly get my hands on it seemed like, and I was not satisfied until I got out the remaining lasagna and ate it down.  It was so good!  I could have eaten 5 pans of lasagna if it were sitting in front of me.. but boy did it take a while to get those carbs and craving out out out!  5 chips may not seem like a lot.   But, if thats your trigger... I myself did something stupid.  Mike had mde a turkey breast last night, and I had this great idea.  Let's go through Ms. Winners and get some sides... cole slaw and mashed taters & gravy.  So we did... and I got a huge portion on my plate, and told Mike .  He said, Yeah right.  Gosh I ate a bunch of that cole slaw.  I got sick.  I didnt really intend to eat it, but it was so good!  I love cole slaw.  I was just teasing him but then look what happened.  That is the first time since 3 mos out that i threw up .  and it was my own fault.  But I will not do that again,hopefully, and will vow to do better

Reading/editing my post I see I took out what I told mike... better post it so it makes more sense to you. I said, 'Look I'm gonna eat like I did before I had surgery" So that ought to have been the big giveaway, but I thought I was tesing. I guess not. 

Hi Kym! That is fantastic about your 6-month report. You have accomplished a lot in these six months. You should be very proud. Do not let those occasional slip ups pull you down. It will happen. About a month ago, I found myself eating two packs of SF cookies in one day. I realized then I had a problem! So, now I do not buy them like that. If I have a craving, I buy one or two pieces. I think the biggest thing is to not Deny yourself. I truly believe that if you deny yourself something, then these binges will come out. If you want something one day, take a bite or two and move on. Then you have to get over it andn ot feel guilty. This surgery is about a lifestyle change and not a diet. I highly doubt you can live the rest of your life without pizza and chips but there is such a thing as moderation. That is what we have to learn and trust me when I say it is a HARD lesson learned. Lord do we all know that. So, if I want pizza, I make my own low carb pizza (thanks Melinda for the receipe) and if I want chips, I eat  FF pretzels.  In any event, you have done great and these types of events will happen and you just can not let it get you down or take away all of the sucess you have had. So, with all that said, my advise is to not deny yourself. I know weird advise but that is just my opinion and I am little weird at times! Hugs!

From one Kim to another, just my two cents worth, but sometimes fear of success is as great as fear of failure.. 

I want to thank everyone *****sponded...you guys gave me some really great things to think about!  I knew I could count on you all!