Depressed about Food lately

I do not know why but I have been dealing with depression about food lately. I know I had to deal with it right after surgery but I got over it. Now, lately, I have been dealing with depression again over food choices. Lately, I just feel like I am eating to live and not eating to enjoy. I am just not happy with the "same ol" food choices I have been eating and I really want to eat something that is really good and I was eating salads and vegetables and now I want good hot food. I have not even been cooking dinner for my husband lately because I just know I am not going to be 100% happy with the food. And that makes me more upset because of neglecting him by not cooking. Last night since I didn't cook he wanted subway and as I sat down with my tuna salad I started crying because I knew it wasn't what I wanted. Of course my husband has no idea why I was crying. The problem is I do not know what I want but I know I just don't want what I am eating. I feel like there is nothing out there that is healthy and taste really good to satisfy these "cravings". I am 9 months out from surgery and have no idea why I have to deal with this depression over food again. I thought I would never have to deal with food issues anymore after getting over the initial surgery but I guess I was wrong. Please tell me I am not the only one that has gone through this! How do you overcome limited food choices, craving for good different food and just the depression from it in general? Misty

I hear you on not wanting to cook but wanting good hot food. I do have the blessing of working where I have access to a cafeteria with a very good chef and also a good variety. I think that is what has saved my sanity. I can go there for lunch and take care of my craving for hot food without having to do all the work just to sit down to a small portion and then be faced with leftovers that I can't eat. There are very few things that I can eat reheated since surgery. I can also get the variety I crave since the menu changes every day. At home, I am getting better at dealing with it. I know that, not only does my husband deserve good, healthy meals, but I do too. I have found a few things I can cook up fairly quickly for just the 2 of us so that we both get a hot, satisfying meal with no leftovers to deal with. This takes some advance planning and prep. When I get home with my groceries, I go ahead right then and portion out the chicken breast for our meals. I have found that if I go ahead and pound the portions flat, then wrap each piece in plastic before freezing. I can put the frozen, plastic wrapped chicken in a big freezer bag to keep in the freezer. When I'm ready to use some I can either take our portions out to thaw early in the day or just before I cook them. Since they are pounded thin, they thaw & cook quickly and stay very tender. Sometimes I marinade them and put them on the Forman grill and other times I dust them with flour and "pan fry" by spraying them with Pam. Add some potatoes or rice for hubby, some vegetables for the 2 of us and we have a hot meal. We are always going to have food issues to deal with. That's another reason why we need each other's support. You are by no means alone in your feelings.

Misty There were times I wondered, "Will I ever sit down and enjoy a meal again?" I promise you that it will happen. It does take awhile... a long while to get to this place. Now your meals will not be what they used to be... I remember telling Mike, "I want a hamburger and french fries so bad!" This was just a few months ago... so we ordered one at O'Charleys (I think). I took one bite (Yes I was NONCOMPLIANT) of the hamburger and chewed, and chewed, and it just did not taste good to me. I ate 3 french fries. It just wasn't what I had remembered. I was wanting a hamburger again to be what I had remembered. Finally a month ago, Mike grilled out and made turkey burgers using fresh ground turkey. It was the best hamburger I believe I ever had! I love them! They are good for me. I cannot eat a whole one.. .but I do have SF ketchup, put a little mustard on it, and anyway you get the idea. You are in a bad place right now. Unfortunately it will have to be "waited" out. Its hard... oh how hard! But I promise it gets better. Besides, that wonderful food that you are craving and liked so much will NOT taste as you remember. It will not be good to you at all. Hold on sis! This too shall pass...