What's wrong with me....

every since I found out that I'm approved, I just can't stop eathing things that I know I shouldn't. I feel guilty, but so far that hasn't kept me from putting it in my mouth. I was suppose to be trying to loose between 5-10 before surgery on April 2nd. At this point I'll be doing good not to have gained that much. I feel like such a failure. If can't do it now, how will I ever manage to do it after surgey.... And Dr. Rutledge said that if I gain any weight that he would put off my surgery until after I had lost it back.

You are doing what is normal, you are thinking this is the last time I can have this, so I better eat it now. I don't think anything is wrong with you at all. You still have a little over two weeks before your surgery and my surgeon put me on a two week pre-diet prior to surgery and I lost 16 pounds prior to my surgery. I am sure that you will do just fine, and lose the weight that is needed to have before your surgery. Remember how hard you worked to get approved and how much you want this and focus on that, YOU CAN and WILL DO IT!!! We are all here for you, because we have all been where you are!!!! Shelia

I said goodbye to all my favorite foods... gained 11 lbs doing it... but still said goodbye. I've heard a lot of people doing this, and they regretted it later saying they could have gotten to their goal sooner if they had not gained weight prior to surgery. Though I think its somewhat something we need to do, there is still a healthy line and so be careful that you dont push things too far....

Kristen, There's is nothing wrong with you. You think you can not eat all those yummy things again in your lifetime after your have your surgery. Wrong. YOu can eat most of those things again but at a smaller rate and you have more control over yourself. Think, I will get to have pizza again but it will be a few weeks after surgery. Mostly you get to have some toppings until you get the okay about having bread. Plus you get a dietion on your side to help you find better and healthier things to eat. I have pasta sauce and meat no noodles and no bread. I really do not miss it. You lose all taste for sugar like most who had this surgery. You can have some sugar free items if you still need a treat like that. It does help. But you are going to be so busy atfer surgery that you will not miss any food from before. Just relax you are nerous and stressed out. That will cause you to have the munchies and wanting more and more. You are approved and you will be eating regular food again but in a smaller and healthier varies too. So do not think you will be missing anything. It is not your last chance at eating, it is a new door that is opening up for you. You will have a new sense of taste buds that open for you. I love finding new foods that send me in a whole new directions. Then food I used to eat before surgery does not even taste the same to me or good. You will find your way. I think you just need to calm down. ANd try not to worry so much. You are doing fine. Stay stronge and do not give in. We are all praying and hoping for you. Your friend, Tina Cannon

Kristen I had my surgery on Feb 1 and went through the same thing. I was eating everything in sight, thinking I don't know when I can ever have this again so I would eat it. I was eating late at night, all night, first thing in the morning. I ended up gaining eight pounds and was horrified when I went in for my last pre op appointment and they told me. Luckily my surgeon did not post pone my surgery because of it, but I do know that if I had not done that I would be in "onederland" by now, and I am only six weeks out. So just eat in moderation, I know that it is hard to do, but it is important to keep that date, use that as your goal! Nicole

Hi Kristin. First off, Congrats on your upcoming surgery. There is nothing wrong with you and you are not a failure. Most people do exactly what you are doing. I know I did. However, my Doc never said he wouldn't do the surgery if I gained weight. If your DR is serious about this, you need to be careful. You went through all of this to get approved and get a surgery date. Don't let that go by. I had to do an 8 day liquid only diet before surgery so I lost weight during those 8 days. I would suggest that if you are not required to do that, maybe do it anyway for a few days before your surgery so that you can lose any weight that you may have put on. Basically you just have to drink 8 Carnation Instant Breakfasts (carb freindly) a day in addition to getting in 64 oz of fluids (no food at all). It really works to help you lose weight. Before my 8 day liquid diet, I was eating at all of my favorite restuarants to say "goodbye". I gained about 8 pounds between when my insurance approved me and my pre surgery tests. However, I lost like 10 doing the pre-op liquid diet. Also, you said you are not sure how you will be able to eat good after surgery if you can't now..... TRUST me, that will not be a problem. You will not have a choice after surgery and honestly, you will not want to eat that way ever agian so do not worry about that. So my advise is to enjoy now in moderation and do a pre op liquid diet to lose weight. Only a couple more weeks! How exciting! Keep us updated. Misty

I just wanted to say "Thanks" to all of you. When I talked to the psychiatrist he told me that this decision would be one of the toughest in my life, probably right up there with getting married. When I got married, John and I had already been living together for over a year. It seemed like such a natural thing and I never once had second thoughts. I guess I figure that if I could handle the stress of getting married, graduating from college and working a full-time job all at once, that WLS would be a piece of cake (so to speak). I have so many emotions right now that I'm really not sure what to do. Once minute I'm happy and excited about the life I'm going to have after surgery, and the next I'm scared to death and second-guessing my decision. It's nice to know that y'all have been there and that I'm not just completely losing my mind. I started reading Before and After: Living and Eating Well After Weight Loss Surgery by Susan Maria Leach last night, ans she writes about having some of the same struggles that I am having. It made me feel so much better that I cried. This site have been a wonderful thing for me. Thanks for caring.