A failure...this time on the losing side

Well, I am "OFFICIALLY " a failure even after the surgery. Late sat. night I got so hungry that I went and found a leftover chicken strip from Friday night.The strip was this long(######################) Which I chewed it until it was like the bits of chicken that is the broth I had in the hospital. Now I KNOW I should NOT have done that but I was just so hungry and I got my protein in. But what a FAILURE! And you know the thing about it all is I am not going to keep this as a secret because if I did I would just be the way I was growing up when I used to hoard food & keep what I ate secret, so the best thing for me to do IS to tell people that if I have eaten, when and what I ate and how much. Well when I do that I get told things that I ALREADY know of what I should & shouldn't be doing.(heck I did my research on this surgery for two years prior to even getting it & I read the information of what I should be doing over and over again) But can I just say that if I can't get any "helpful" critisizim(sp?) and or helpful hints instead of people telling me that they just knew I couldn't do this; then you know what...maybe I am just THAT weak that I CAN'T DO IT! Now I know I will hear it from my dr. when I tell him but you know like I said at least I will tell him. I would rather tell him and listen to what he has to say about what I've done, then not tell him at all and keep this a secret. If you guys have made it this far thankyou for listening to me, it means allot.

Put down the stick! You are not a failure. You are only 5 days post-op, you still have a lot to learn. You will only become a failure if you continue this behavior. And, you just may cause some serious damage to your new, healing stomach pouch in the process. There's a very good reason why they have us take it slow the first few weeks. 1. Use this as a learning experience instead of as an excuse to continue the same behavior. *The old "Well I've blown it now so I may as well eat the rest of the cake" thinking from our failed diet days. 2. If you are having problems with the emotional side of eating (which is what it sounds like to me, i.e. - head hunger) find a good therapist. 3. Are you active in a support group? If not, become part of one. Find someone in the group who you can call when you encounter these urges to eat things that are not on your program yet. 4. Call your surgeon's office and ask for help. They are there to help you. They WANT YOU TO SUCCEED!!!!!!!!!! There is nothing you can tell them that they haven't heard before. LET THEM HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take care of YOU! I know you can do this. We have all struggled, and worried that we would be THE ONE this surgery wouldn't work for. Do you know the difference between a failure & a success? A failure falls down and lies there waiting for someone to pick him up. A success falls down 7 times and gets up 8. Sending you a big warm (((HUG))) Susan

Kim, you are NOT a failure. I agree w/ all that Susan said. If you need to, see your therapist again. Please keep in mind, you are not a failure. You can & will make this surgery work. Keep telling yourself this. If you need us, we will be here. Keep up the good work & keep us posted. Sara.

Kim, my surgery was one day before yours but fortunately I haven't had the hunger but I feel for you. This is such a life style change and we think we are ready for it. We will have to work to stay on the losing side and we knew that before the surgery. We all have weak moments (I know mine is coming) but we just have to get up, dust ourselves off and say "I am not a failure. I can do this". I know you can Kim and I also know you are not a failure. Hang in there and like Susan and Sara said, they are here for us so we can be here for us too.....................Terry Love you Kim and God does too!!!

CHICA= you are NOT a failure------ YOu have made a mistake... that's all... and we all learn from our mistakes. Don;t beat yourself up-- like they said....pick yourself up...and continue on.... YOu are a winner for admitting your faults..... most/some would not admit they did a "NO-NO".... so come on CHICA.......!!(((HUGZ))) rigt now-I;m feeling down... I havent lost a THING in at lest 3 weeks......UGH....I am 3.5 months out and have lost only 50 lbs......... I read other profiles... and other's seem to loose a LOT more- at this point- post op...... I wonder what I;m doing worng?!! anyway-------------hang in there-we are all here for you!! OXOXOXo your soon to be skinny friend in Cookeville!

Hi Kim, don't make me have to look you up when I am in Nashville on Aug. 2 and spank you for thinking as a failure. Honey, you made a small mistake. I found when I would feel a little hungry at bedtime, I would drink some broth or sf jello. Eating normal food right now, can hurt your new pouch more then you realize. I eat the Gerber level 2 bananas or their Dutch apple Dessert at bedtime. It helps a lot. But try eating some sf jello, or a little broth, you certainly don't want errosions in your new pouch. It is too painful and that I know personnally. Had to be hospitalized because of it. Ask your nutrionist about this. But think positive and you will succeed at losing the weight. I'm 2 lbs from the 100 lb marker. You can do this just be patient and follow the rules regarding your new pouch. My love and prayers to you, Kathy