Well I was reading a post on the message boards called Ashley's story and well I am really scared, I feel sick and am having alot of second thoughts. I mean I want to be normal but Ashley went through more then any person should. I want so much out of life but what if I do get the surgery and have so many complications that I can't enjoy "the fruits of my labor"? I just want to be normal and happy. As my favorite song goes - "To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)" -- Simple Plan, Welcome to my Life Well I guess you guys know what it's like. But I feel like this everyday and I just want to hear this song and not think that the are talking about me. I want (it sounds korney but...) a happy song to be the song that I can relate to. I want so much but am really afraid to take any risks. Anyone out there who had the surgery or made up their mind to have surgery please write back 'cause I really need advice. Carmella

dude, i was so crazy with my phych eval and the dude lightened up and he was cool...he gave me approval and such

yo, I got my psych eval january 15 and i hope it not some crazy questions bc iam going to say some crazy things.

i met good charlotte like 3 years ago

Hi, Meghan! I just e-mailed you, but I'll post here too just incase other people are interested. I just had my Lap RNY this week on Monday, Dec. 13th. I went home the next morning. I am still having pain but I saw my surgeon today for my one week check up and brought the pain issue up and he said it's perfectly normal. My pain isn't unbearable by any means and every day it gets better. I'm still on my pain medication, 2 every 4-6 hours. I'm finally able to sleep on my stomach again and I've been able to sleep through the night without waking up from pain for the past two nights now. I went to the bathroom #2 yesterday for the first time since the day before surgery (sorry if that is too much info) but I felt a lot better afterwards!!! Anyhow, my stats are: 223 day of surgery and I'm 5ft. 3 3/4in. and I'm hoping to get down to 140/135. My surgeon said that those are very resonable goals. I hope to be down atleast 40 pounds by my birthday which is Feb. 28th. This first week I can eat cheeses, including cottage cheese, peanut butter, eggs, yogurts, and fruits, veggies, and starches. week 2 I can start eating chicken and fish along with everything else and 4 weeks out I can eat anything I ate before surgery. E-mail me back if you've got any questions or anyone else does!! Take care!! Megan P.S. There's a support group that meets at Southdale mall in Edina in a conference room there a couple times a month. A lot of Buchwald's patients and some other surgeons patients go there. If you're interested let me know and I can find more info for you about it.