*I'm BACK!!*

I'm back after trying again to lose weight with dieting and exercise. And no..I had no success. I started thinking of weight loss surgery again a couple months ago and this time I realy want to go through with it. I'm back where I left off last time. Calling my doctor and setting up an appointment. I started writing a letter to help explain some things I've went through in my life and why I want the surgery.(Tip that I got from a fellow OH'er) So far I have about 2 and a fourth of a page filled in. I'll try to fini**** within 4 pages, but there's so much to explain!! But I feel if I write to much or to little they wont take me "seriously." Well there's not much to say as of now. I'll be calling to make an appointment tomorrow. I'll let you all know how that go's for me. Thanks to all *****plyed on my older posts, I realy appreciate it, I'll lend as much help as I can to others here. Even though I'm in need myself! Thanks yall! --Maggie

Hey Beautiful!! Whats up chika! I just read your message and profile and I would encourage you to really consider the surgery. The reason I am writing you is because you remind me so much of myself when I was your age. I wish I could of gotten the surgery a while ago. I am 23 now and getting it but i got up to 500 lbs in the process. But just wanted to let you know that you are GORGEOUS and hope you get the surgery! Feel free to message me anytime! Raya

Thanks for the replies! I'm so ashamed to admit this..But I was too scared to call and set up an appointment. I'm so freaked out of what my doctor will say to me. What her response to me will be..I want this so bad, yet, I cant get over the fact that I get so nervous around people with authority, people who will tell me how it is. Tomorrow..well today at 9am there is a seminar in Lincoln and my mom said it's for people who want or have had weight loss surgery, I hope that's right. I'll feel like a fool if it's for those who've had it already...I still need to find something (NOT FOOD) to get over being so nervous all the time about what people will say to me. I never could ask to goto the nurses office when I was in public school because I was afraid they would ask why, and never once was I let home from school even when I was sick. Sometimes Im just afraid of the world. I just need to suck it up! But its so hard. I can imagine myself doing it, but then when it comes to it, I shy away. But I DONT want it to happen anymore. This is something I want! And something I will work for! I'll do anything! --maggie

We are so similar! What I did before seeing my surgeon was write him a letter explaining everything I've tried and why I want it- just incase I freaked out and didn't know what to say I was either going to read it or hand it to him. Turns out he was very understanding and did most of the talking. -Serena