im scared now .

Someone I know had surgery a month and a half ago. Yesterday she started having severe nausia and vomiting, and her family took her to the E.R. She died today and it was credited to complications from the surgery. This scares me so much, because this girl had told me just days ago that she was feeling great, she was all smiles, and today she's gone. It's so scary and I know I'm doing fairly well, my surgeon has even told me so but it just scares me to no end to think that out of nowhere this could happen. I'm not trying to make people who havn't had surgery yet, get scared or anything but I'm sort of having a hard time dealing with this because, this is the first person I knew, actually knew IRL who had the surgery I did and didn't make it ... I guess the point of this is, just me venting my thoughts on it because now I'm scared

Surgery is a very scary thing. I was so scared when I was going in I was crying the nurses actually had to give me a seditive and I don't get crazy over anything! As for your friend, it's very hard to believe this but it must have been her time to go. I know it's hard for people who are not especially religious and to be honest it's hard for those of us who are also. A friend of mine from my class died when we were 16, and my class took it really hard. The only thing that got us through was faith. If we believe the world has no grand sceme behind it, I think a lot more than just one death of a loved one would drive us crazy! I know you're hurting, but we also have to think would your friend want you to feel sad for her? Or use her life to move forward and take extra care of yourself? Time helps. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but it's ok to hurt and be scared. These are normal emotions, just don't let them take over your life. Hope that helped, Becca 389/310/170