for those who have done the lap band surgery ONLY!

Ok I know this seems odd and rather silly to most people but I was wondering if there is almost a dark side to surgery
And one thing i noticed is when i overeat i Throw up but there are time when i feel like when I eat something bad, i almost feel tempted to drink a bottle of water just to throw it up(a bullemic effect if you may). I know this is a quite silly thing to do because when people with the lap band throw up it can lead to a band slip.
So I've done this b4 but I stopped after a false alarm

Anyway you are probably thinking get to the point...
ok
i wanted to know, have you or anyone you know who have had weight loss surgery, preferably  lap band surgery, have felt the urge to purge despite the risk of a band slippage. If you dont want to say  whether"you've done it" you can say you know someone who did...that way an arrow wont be pointing at you....
I was hoping to write about this for an extra credit project and i dont want to feel like I'm the only one who's done it.
I Appreciate all the help I can get!

I know how you feel. I feel when I make wrong choices that I have to do something to correct them. I've never actually purged because I'm too afraid of hurting my band or screwing it up but I have definitely thought about it. I feel like everytime I make a mistake I get so down on myself. Or when I don't lose weight that I was a total failure the last week. I know how you feel..