Feeling really down

So.. I waited and waited for Dr. Wynn's office to call me back so that I could make a consultation appointment..because they said that they didnt have her September schedule, and couldn't yet make the appointment. Well.. we called and called..nothing. =[ They took down all my information..but they haven't called back. This must be the discouragement everyone has been talking about. I feel like I will always be trapped in this horrible body of fat. My best friend & I have made a workout routine that we try to follow, its hard sometimes becuase of our college/work schedules..but we tend to make it work. I thought that working out at least would help me lose some weight..but its been about 2 weeks--and no progress. I can honeslty say ive been very good with my serving sizes. If I crave ice cream [my worst enemy] i'll only get a very little bit just enough to get rid of the craving [maybe this is bad?] Thats happened about twice in the past 2 weeks. I did have cake & ice cream tonight for a bday party. Maybe God just wants me to stay like this? I mean, why wouldn't Dr. Wynns office call back? Maybe we just have to pester them. It would help if my Mom were as passionate about this as she was about her weight loss. I feel like im held back because im only 17 [18 in december], and i need my parents to hold my hand on everything--at least, thats what the law seems to think. *sigh* Thanks to anyone who listened/read my venting. I just feel so DOWN. ='[ Fat & Hopeless, Vanessa

Vanessa, I've been where you are. I know it just SUCKS! I know exactly what you mean when you say you feel trapped, too, and that telling you it will all work out if you're patient won't do a thing to make you feel good. I don't know you're whole story, but try and think of this time as the last little bit of an old life. Pretend you MUST change soon, like if you had to move away from home, and would miss what you were leaving even if you knew you were going somewhere better. You'd still want to cherish and hang onto the last of your time in the "old" place, right? Try your best to think of it like that, maybe even treating life this way: take pictures of everything already familiar, write about it, etc. like you were having to go away - even if you're writing about how much better your new house and town and friends will be, it will help eat up the time. If you need to talk you can message me, too. Laura