What's on your Tuesday Menu?

Hi Gang! Happy Taco Tuesday!

Ugh I am not feeling like showing my face at work today. I realized late in the afternoon that I made a mistake yesterday that will actually end up working out in everyone's favor and make everyone VERY happy, but meanwhile I really misunderstood something and therefore miscommunicated a policy that had the whole school on edge for 4 weeks. I feel like a total idiot and I just want to retire and stay home and decorate cookies. Can I do that?

Also, thanks to whoever recommended The Only Women in the Room. I knew a little about Hedy Lamarr but hearing her whole story was incredible! I'm so obsessed with her now.

QOTD: Would you rather live 100 years in the future or 100 years in the past? I think I would go back 100 years. I know times were very hard back then and certainly not the best times for women and minorities, but I would like to see the transformation of the US from the 20s through the 60s... What an incredible transformational time.

I felt too queasy and uneasy and upset with myself last night to eat my feelings, so yay? I stuck to my menu exactly yesterday.

Good mornin everyone. JB breathe. We are all human so there for we are anything but perfect. We make mistakes from time to time. Please try to easier on yourself...you'd do it for anyone else, why not do it for you?

I've got a lot planned today. I have an appointment with the pain specialist this morning. Then my mom wants to go to the thrift store and then Walmart. I'm not feeling very well. I'm pretty sure I've got a sinus infection going on or something with that area. I'm going to get some Sudafed today.

I kind of crashed and burned last night with food. I was sad about my uncle and a few other things and I ate my feelings. I try to remember that feelings are not facts...but in the heat of it it sure feels that way. My cousin and his wife(my uncle George's son) can't come home because they've found another tumor in a different part of her breast. She has the BRCA gene and they've recommended a mastectomy and hysterectomy. Neither of which she wants because she says she wants to have a kid. She is in her mid to late 40's. They are supposed to meet with a surgeon today. If she were to get pregnant it'd likely not go well for her. She's already had a lumpectomy on one breast not very long ago so the short time between that and a new tumor...well it's just scary and I'm very worried about her and my cousin. I am not close with them but I just feel so sad. My uncle George isn't doing well at all. If y'all could spare some prayers and good thoughts I'd appreciate it.

QOTD: what a loaded and good question! I choose neither! I'd like to think our country would be better in 100 years but...we'll let's face it. Our current political climate and the countries ability to throw **** under the rug...it's scary. BUT I don't think I'd like the 100 years ago either. It'd mean living through the Great Depression, Japanese interment camps and WWII and alllllll the Jim Crow/race stuff here in the south and country wide really.

On a more positive side...the arts and craft and craftsmen style would of been awesome to see and the possibility of a better world in the future(meaning people see that systematic racism exists and existed and we choose to love one another and our differences).

B: JUST egg cup and coffee with benefiber

L: Protein shake...trying a new kind this one is fruity cereal flavor

D: I was finally able to find fennel yesterday so I'll probably do that with some onion and then maybe 2 ozs of andouille sausage

S: PP shake, onion jack cheese(which is good but not AS good as I'd hoped) and a cup of watermelon.

I wanted to ad these because they made me smile yesterday. One of the cat groups I'm in on FB had a close up challenge. These were the entries for my two monsters. I love them so much! Yup...I'm very much a sucker...it's even written on my forehead.

Thinking of you and your family.

Your poor family. My thoughts and prayers sent your way.

JBQ-I agree with Melody. Give yourself some grace. I had read somewhere that for every one negative comment/thought it requires at least 5 positive comments/thoughts to counterbalance. Try to think of all the good things you have accomplished in your new position.

Horrible update.

My uncle George has cancer and it's metastasized to pretty much everywhere. The doctor gave him 2-3 weeks.

I'm devastated.

I am sorry to hear that Melody. I hope that they are able to keep him comfortable and that your family is able to be together with him and each other at this time.

Thank you so much...it's such a helpless feeling. We'll do our best!

I'm so incredibly sorry for what you're having to go through.

Thank you very much!