What's on your Wednesday Menu, RNYers?

Thanks Hala, this is a good reminder that the carbs really aren't doing anything positive for me -- it's not just my pants size that is affected by poor eating. But god help me, I can do without the rest of it, but I am not giving up the artificial sweeteners yet!

I use some artificial sweeteners, but I try to stay away form the packets that has dextrose. Liquid Splenda or even saccharine.
I use mostly liquid stevia, and I started using alluose for baking.

Aspartame in diet soda irritates my bladder. It may be a combination of flavors and aspartame. I started having incontinence that I thought was due to age. But once I stop drinking any diet soda, my issues disappeared. When I start drinking diet soda again, my "problem" comes back.

I tried to have a 2019 moment when I tried to be maskless at SAMS club. I kept putting it back on, and I felt people were judging when I had it off.

I am not sure if I will ever be maskless in a store again. I can't believe I used to let strangers breathe on me, lol.

I am keeping my mask on for a while longer. Some of my friends have taken theirs off. I don't feel comfortable without it.

Hi everyone! Just going to put it all out there

First - I have missed you all! My leaving OH about a year and half ago was due to some seriously unhealthy triggers I was struggling with (comparing myself to others, trying to be perfect and more). I became obsessive about everything and I felt like a huge failure. It seemed the only way to cope at that time was to disappear. It helped for a little while. Through lots of therapy, I discovered some traumas and other emotional issues I did not realize affected my life and who I am today. I am still working through it all. I took up drinking every day, quit exercising, read what seems like hundreds of diet books, tried several diets looking for answers - intuitive eating, WW, Noom, I even revisited Skinny ***** and French woman don't get fat, among others. While all were interesting, none of them helped me for longer than a few weeks. This morning I weighed in at 214.7. I cannot say I didn't notice or see the rise, I did, but with all the personal trials, politics and Covid life changes, it seemed so back burner. I honestly I did not think it was so bad. Everyone is gaining weight, no one is going to the gym, and everyone is drinking! We are all in this together! However, it is very bad. This morning, I decided to plug my menu for the couple of days into MFP (which I had abandon long ago) and there, starring me in the face was a serious WTF? What are you doing? Where is the accountability? Why aren't you participating on OH?

I'm ready now.

I know what I need to do. Back to basics, machine mentality and the 'just do it' attitude. I would rather be working hard on the fight than feeling as I do right now. I worry that I have gone too far to get back - it is hard to imagine 600-800 calories now. It is going to be tough, but I did not go through surgery and years of hard work to let it all go.

Working on the plan as we speak... more tomorrow.

Amy

Its so great to see you Amy! I think of you whenever I hear Cheap Trick Surrender on the radio. Back to our Junior High School days.

I've missed you!! Thought of you often through football season - crazy year!

Hiiiiiiiiii! I am so happy to see you here. I have thought about you often and hoped you are well.

I am not quite where you are, but I felt like I was getting there. I also had that - "WTF are you doing?" moment last week and decided to crawl back and try doing this the only way I know how--with friends & a plan & some accountability.

I am 100% here for you! Hope you keep joining us :)

Hey!!! I've though of you often as well and I'm so glad you are here! I feel like I've come full circle and understand that I must accepted that I am different - I don't fit the average eating/diet molds, I can't have my cake and eat it too... I need to be here. I'm in this and here for you, too!!!!