What's on your Thursday Menu?

no the longer i'm out from surgery the more i'm seeing that people that don't struggle with regain are eating 800-1400 calories a day... and the ones that eat 1400 - 1600 may be exercising 2 hours per day.

I'm not pointing any fingers just seems so messed up to me... and more messed up that its taken me 5 years to figure it out. I did the caloric tests that say I can have 1700 and still lose weight but now I'm seeing this is just not possible...

I fell for the hoax that if I got down to goal I would be able to add back calories and just eat like a normal, sensible person going forward. Nope. The smaller I am the LESS I get to eat. I have tried it a few different ways with a few different diets, but it just doesn't work... I need to be overly restricted for life. I hate it, but it is reality. Time to reign it back in.

Good morning everyone. What a long long night filled with pain. Its the worse night I've had in a long time. Its made me emotionally spent not to mention physically. I am starting to have neck and arm pain as an added bonus.

We were informed yesterday that my niece's birthday party will be held at our house Saturday. Nice of them to let us know.... I swear these people don't know how to communicate...anything. So I get to make a cake and clean. My SIL and her mom are allergic to cats so it'll be lots of vacuuming and dusting. Then my brother's birthday is the 15th so I get to make an egg custard pie, peanut butter fudge and maybe a meal Sunday if they decide to come over then. Guys...i'm in such a foul mood over my pain the last thing I feel like doing is all that stuff. You know who makes my birthday meal or things like that? ME that's who...Do I sound bitter??? I might be. I am turning into krampus or the grinch.

On the plan today we have to go pick up my moms prescriptions at walmart. We had 21 people died yesterday, over 50 people since saturday.

QOTD: Hmmm...i'd have to say my tronex pliers that I just got a month ago or so. They are over 50 bucks a pair but I'd so love another pair of the chain nose ones! Money is tight though so who knows when that'll happen.

B: oatmeal and coffee

L: Salad

D: protein smoothie

S: popcorn, GF rice crackers and maybe an egg

You need to add the word NO to your vocabulary.

Melody, I know it's tough with family but what happens if you just say no? If you don't spend the day trying to de cat the house? Is that an option?

For my mom that's a no.

a little backstory as to why my mom is afraid they'll take the grandkids away. My oldest aunt swindled my great grandparents(that includes my grandma's step day) and effectively my grandma and stole over a million dollars from them plus land and other stuff. In doing so she ripped her 4 boys out of my grandparents, aunts and uncles AND my moms life. She dangled them like sick chess pieces to hurt my family. My brother has never done anything that even would suggest it...I know him and know he is not that person. But...my mom is terrified of losing contact with her grandkids.

while I would say no gladly my mom is kind of ruled by that fear her sister fostered.

my hands are tied as I understand that fear comes from a reality she lived. I also know that my brother is not that way. It's an irrational fear...one she'll likely carry her whole life.

I'm also exceptionally grumpy with the pain and I haven't been all that honest with her about how much pain I'm actually in again.

Morning! That exclamation point is really more enthusiastic than I feel over here. My father instigated a political argument with me last night "out of no where". It's not out of no where if you know my father, but it's exhausting none-the-less. I barely engaged him, which just made him more upset and biting in his comments. I ended up dreaming about it all night and waking up just as pissed off as I was when I went to bed. I only have one parent left and it sucks when you have to set boundaries that mean extinguishing a relationship with a parent.

QOTD: I really had to think about what I've bought this year, because it's honestly not much. I would say our fence around our yard, because it's meant not having to walk our very old dog every morning (walk is a loosely used term here, he was so slow and we never made more than a loop of our yard). Also, my husband purchased a RecTec smoker and hot damn there's been some really great food from that.

My Food:

• Coffee w/ Cream x3
• Turkey, Cheese, Cucumber, Dip, Avocado
• Homemade pizzas - we've been doing these about once per week and working on getting the crust thinner and thinner. I really like a "crispy" crust.

I need to buckle down and do PT today. I think I'll get on the bike tomorrow for the first time. This will no be a "workout". Maybe 5-6 mph with no resistance for 5-10 minutes. I'm hoping it doesn't pinch!

These are tuff times. Could it just be the Covid Restrictions that have your dad in a tizzy? I hope you two can work this out amicably and quickly. Life is to short but I was raised by a bunch of Italians so I know what the word hard head means. I have a brother I have not spoke to in over 5 years.

No. This is my father. He's a verbally abusive alcoholic, but I've been out of it for a lot of years because he doesn't have anything to taunt me over. He's recently been informed about my political views and sees that as a weakness he can target.

Good morning, everybody!

I am irked because when I looked up my last credit card statement, I noticed that I let $600 of Nordstrom Notes expire unused. Yes, I can feel people reaching in and slapping me through the internet. They used to be paper slips and the stores were pretty lax about the expiration dates, but I'm not sure if that will still be the case now that they are virtual. Who buys clothes in a pandemic?

This has been a busy week. I had an Endocrinoligist appointment on Tuesday and an Opthamologists appointment yesterday. Plus, still busy at work in anticipation of the year's end. I am looking forward to the weekend.

QOTD: I bought 5 4x8 sheets of plywood and a horse stable mat and made a weight lifting platform in my garage.

This picture is before it was finished, because we ordered a 48 inch Sailor Bear decal from Baylor and applied it, plus added multiple coats of polyurathane on top. I should go out side and take another picture, but its cold. Second place, I got a Vineyard Vines Barstool Pizza Review shirt (one bite, everybody knows the rules)

Breakfast: egg sandwhich

Snack: protein Bar

Lunch: CHili

Dinner: TBD

Have a great day, all!