What's on your Wednesday Menu?

Hello all...late post from me.

I'm dealing with a deep hole of depression. So freakin frustrating. I want to be all positive and stuff but I'm struggling...again. I don't think lexapro is working so much but I still need to give it time. Just yuck. The pain is overwhelming and my mood is just in the dumpster fire that is 2020. I really just want it all to stop. All of it.

I'm back on plan for the most part today. I had a piece of this fudge stuff I made that's dairy free. Will never make it again. It's good but I just can't have it around me. I don't know if I'll ever learn that my binge eating is REAL and always present. I am going to stop buying "snacks" and stuff like them. No candy...no crackers. I have some pie in the freezer from thanksgiving and I'll likely not make a lot for Christmas. I just need to come to realize I can't always control my eating. I know most of y'all get that but I'm just a hard headed idiot at my best. Just so ashamed of myself...grrr.

breakfast: 2 eggs and a banana...coffee

Lunch: turkey chili and faux cheese

snack: aforementioned fudge stuff and fresh raspberries

dinner: I'm thinking about oatmeal but I really am not sure

snack: popcorn and maybe a decaf coffee.

I did find this eggplant and roasted bell pepper spread I like with eggs...though I forgot it this morning lol

qotd: hmmmm the coolness. I hate the wind though and winter is only second to spring with wind but a lot colder. I love being cuddled up in a blanket.

Don't beat yourself up about binge eating--we wouldn't all be friends here everyday if we had this all figured out, right? It's a lesson I learn over and over and over and over again... We're all doing our best.

Thanks! :o)

getting past the all or nothing is hard. I try to remember this...if I drop my iPad and it doesn't break I don't do it again until it breaks. No you pick it up and keep going.

with pain and my mood today it's just been hard. I ate some dairy and gluten over the weekend and no have sores on my upper lip. I knew it'd happen but I did it anyway. The things we do to ourselves....

We are all here for you! Try your best to be kind to yourself.