What's on your Thursday Menu?
My dad had a dressing he made with ground meat giblets there was raisins. He did it in a loaf pan and it kinda looked like meatloaf. Damn if he didn't take that recipe to the grave with him. My DB and I have both tried to mimic it but both with many failed attempts.
HW 299 SW 290 CW 139 GW 140 2/08/2019 OPERATION: Surgical Hernia with excision of total surface area of 55 x 29 cm of abdominal skin.
I've been having a REALLY rough week between the aquarium worries ( no water yet because he couldn't find the part yesterday - I told him to just tell me what to is and I'll drive ANYWHERE 2 get it - so far no response 
and all my other deadlined responsibilities I'm not or I'm Barely showing up for. 
I HATE being trapped in a situation I can barely influence much less control and this has literally been going on since SUNDAY !!!
But WORSE I Exponentially More Hate it when I can't show up for whatever emotional reason ( probably fear ) and all the mental whipping in the world won't make the broken-down old horse go ... 
Yesterday was the fourth day literally sitting around waiting for people to show up. I also tried to skate and promptly fell on my Azz....it was caused by trying in too high winds and a sand trap at the bottom of our driveway ... but it was very disappointing. I didn't end up enjoying it AT ALL and came back home after 10 minutes ( my usual rule )
Also no swimming ( swimming today )
So I had a big pouch day - and ended up baking six fat free blueberry streusel kodiak flour enhanced muffins- ate four over the course of 24 hours .
Also started craving real cheese and made a few full fat truffle cheese topped warm rolls after mid nite - ate about half and some pressed fig and almond "cake".
B- swim and chai tea latte
L- fresh vegetable lasagna FF ( spinach and eggplant parmesan)
D- TBD but hopefully seafood and salad
Determined to buy collapsible tables today to start working , fix printer , respond to emails , sign contracts and return them , finish letters asking for more time ....
THEN I'll finally be able to stop HIDING like an ostrich 
in front of the TV and BREATHE and RELAX. 
on 11/19/20 5:26 am - Amarillo, TX
Good morning all.
I've got a long day ahead. Stomach is still messed up and I'm hurting. I've got to chase down a few people that were supposed to call me. I'm so sick of having to do that.
I'm hoping we'll be staying home today. There is a rumor that the school district here is going to go remote after the thanksgiving break. Part of me really hopes so...the biggest part of me. The other smallest part realizes that I'll likely have to be a part time teacher for my nieces...I'm not cut out to be a teacher. LOL. I will do it though as I know it's the safest thing to do. Our state is a dumpster fire at this Covid-19 stuff. Most mayors are unwilling to implement mask mandates and our governor is an ass. We had a rodeo here last week. How stupid do you have to be? Ugh!
I may do a deep clean of the kitchen today if I feel up to it. I need to scrub the grates to the stove top badly so if I just get that done it's a win.
qotd: I used to make this fruit tart that was amazing! So so good. That was my all time favorite dessert! Fried okra is a close runner up. It's something my grandpa used to fix and became a tradition. It is something that we miss if we don't have.
b: oatmeal and coffee
l: cauliflower soup and daiya cheese
d: butternut squash, taco meat and two small corn tortillas
s: popcorn, egg, gf bread and plant based butter
Mel
Spray those grates with oven cleaner and let them set. I usually throw them in the oven to heat up before I spray them . No scrubbing needed just rinse after about an hour or 2.
HW 299 SW 290 CW 139 GW 140 2/08/2019 OPERATION: Surgical Hernia with excision of total surface area of 55 x 29 cm of abdominal skin.
on 11/19/20 12:12 pm - Amarillo, TX
Things got changed around.
lunch was veggie burger patty, guacamole and a gluten free mini macaroon.
dinner will be the cauliflower soup and a small slice of dairy and gluten free cheesecake. I am trying out a new recipe. Has tofu, faux cream cheese(made from almonds) that you make a small layer with then add pumpkin and spices for a second layer. It was a vegan recipe but decided to add an egg for better body. I was shocked the batter(before the egg) actually tasted great! Hoping it cooks well. I looked a lot for one that didn't call for soaking cashews or other nuts. Not against nuts but I want it to be light as possible.
will share a pic and review tomorrow!
Mel
Well I tried to swim and after five days ( or more ) of nonstop high winds the pool was FREEZING despite the heater ... so I ended up hanging out in the jacuzzi lol. 
I keep telling myself I'm going to buy a swim friendly wetsuit ... they're not cheap and I've never used one but this happens too many times here in the winter to not have one . And windy days are exactly the ones you can't skate or even comfortably WALK so I have to research and probably treat myself to this . I've always wanted a waterproof I pod too ...
This all reminds me of how incredibly grateful I am for this life enhancing surgery and the little fixes afterwards . I don't feel body-embarassed anymore even if I DONT exercise ... and bottom line ... my body feels good and functions well. Which it did NOT particularly after I started drinking all day every day post op .
So I feel incredibly lucky to have miraculously escaped these horrible sand-traps of having to medicate my feelings with alcohol and overeating which plagued me literally MOST of my life . Now I'm FREE !!! 
Sometimes I don't know the best thing do with that newfound freedom and I have to be understanding with myself - this late in life I'm finally getting the opportunities I always yearned for and I have to deal with my own natural moodiness and Covid ... and increasing work related pressure which I was never a champ at dealing with .
But if I am understanding and yet disciplined with myself I think I will learn to handle the pressure of creative work and getting paid properly and as I deserve far more gracefully and with a lot less pain.
You are back on track and I am off it right now. Accountability not good! I am going to dial into my WW zoom
We walked at the beach in Sarasota yesterday which was great and may go to the local beach today. But my primary focus needs to be getting back to knitting the Christmas stocking for my new grand nephew!
QOTD:
TSS: 4 years, 7.5 months
B: Coffee!!! Steel cut oats with PB2
L: tuna salad and cottage cheese
D: eggplant lasagna (leftover)
S: cheesecake/strawberry/blueberry yogurt pie
Liz 5'3" HW: 219 SW: 185 GW: 125 LW: 113 Desired maintenance range: 120-125 CW: 119ish
Good Morning and Happy Friday-Eve! It will most likely be crazy busy today and I am taking a rest day from exercise. I just feel a little worn out and am trying to listen to my body better and take days off when I feel they are needed. The struggle is real.
Accountability: Typical, which meant snackage happened.
QOTD: Pie or mashed potatoes.
TSS: 6 years, 3 months
B: SF latte, Pear, Quaker protein/fiber oatmeal and turkey sausage
L: TJ Turkey burger, salad, and a honeycrisp apple
S: Turkey wrap and carbmaster yogurt
D: Birch benders pancakes, eggbeaters, Turkey sausage, sliced orange/banana, and 2 squares dark chocolate
ES: Greek yogurt with ¼ cup fiber cereal and toast
E: Rest day
V/W: On track
Totals: Cals:1547 Protein:137 Carbs:123 Fat: 65
Have a great one!
I am posting a pic from Em's theater Instgram account in case anyone wants to watch her upcoming performance via Zoom, it details how you can purchase "tickets" for $5 for a household. I am also going to post a link to the video of her getting her car (its pretty long 2 1/2 mins) but I think if you want to watch it you should be able to click the YouTube link.
RNY 8/11/14 with Dr. Kelvin Higa PS Lipectomy 4/12/17 with Dr. John Burnett HW291.4/CW165/GW150
