2 years post op talk

Hello, I'm 20 from the UK and I am 2 years post-op and doing amazing...

The surgery was my only way out, if I didn't have the surgery I wouldn't be here & I'm so happy I went ahead with it.

My life has changed so much, I use to sit inside behind a screen 24/7 now I'm never in and sitting behind the computer is a no go for me after 30 minutes... I have met so many new friends. Even getting a door held for me is something big for me.

People choose to start a conversation with me now unlike before it was always me trying to talk and them not really wanting too.

life is good but I'm struggling.

I'm 6'4 and had my surgery when I was 30 stone, I'm now currently 14 stone.

I've been really struggling the past 4 months with depression due to me thinking I still am as big as I was etc...

My head tells me that I am no different and I get all the crazy thoughts I use too before surgery.

I take a picture of myself every morning and sit looking at it for hours then eventually the thoughts of me still being HUGE goes away for a few more hours (its really bad, my phone gallery is full haha)

I don't know anyone that has had the surgery in my area, but i feel like having someone that has had it to talk to would be great.

i just want to know people's thoughts on what i should do about the thoughts regarding my weight etc?

i hope everyone is well!

When your brain sees your face, it fills in the body that it remembers. When you stare at a picture make sure that your head is not in the picture. Then your brain will let you see your real body.

This is very common. When I had surgery in 2007 they advised us to cut eyeholes in a paper grocery sack, put it over our head and then look in the mirror. Now we have cameras that will do selfies, so it is easy to do a full length mirror shot without including the head.

Let us know how that works for you.

I'm out over 2 years I've lost over160lbs I wear a size 6 and in my head I'm still 300lbs. This is not a bad problem to have. It keeps me accountable for everything I put in my mouth. I always track everything I eat. I weigh every day so I don't slip. The only time I know my real size is when I walk by a mirror. Every photo of me before surgery I was obese so I make side by sides to remember where I was and where I am now. This might help but I think most of us are still obese in our heads.