What's on your Wednesday menu,RNYers?

QOTD- I thought about it for a few months, but it ended up being over a year before I could get the surgery and I gave up. Which is why I gained 15 lbs on my physician supervised diet.

Accountability: I've been really struggling lately. I know I'm probably not getting enough protein or water and I need to just do it! It's too easy to become complacent.

The weather is supposed to be over 95 again today, my poor garden is suffering. The drip mist system isn't working, as I need to replace the washer in my outdoor faucet but I've been unable to shut off the water. No shut off in the house and at the curb I couldn't use the tool I bought, and need to find another one to do it. I'm not willing to work on it in 95+ degree temps, so it'll have to wait until it cools down. I'm just thankful that I have A/C or sleeping would be miserable. It didn't get below 70 last night. Tomorrow the high is supposed to be 85, so it is cooling a little.

I had a friend tell me that I need to release the pain that I'm holding on to. So much easier said than done. I was extremely shy as a child, and I still hate being the center of attention. And truthfully I'm afraid of people. I'd rather be around animals than people, animals love us no matter what. Not so with humans. I've been trying to explore the roots of my issues and for me writing about it helps. I've honestly never felt "good enough", and I'm not sure how to love myself. I will be scheduling a counseling appointment soon!

Have a great Wednesday everyone!

It's hard to get back on track, but you can do it. You have a track record of doing hard things!

Julia - I feel your pain. A few years ago I could have written that last paragraph myself - word for word. Please take the time to work through this. You are worth it! All the pain that will come up will be worth finding yourself, your worth and inner peace

I think that many of us can identify with what you said. Hang in there, and write on!

Everything that's already been said

Good morning~ I never made it to swimming yesterday - I had to stay late at work so I missed my reserved lane time. I'm thinking of changing gyms to one that has a location where I work and where I live for more flexibility. The one I'm considering doesn't require lane reservations for lap swim. Plus, Rob wants to join now so that will be motivating for me. Our king sized bed will be delivered today and I cannot wait!! We currently have a soft queen that is killing my hips and back. I can't wait to have more elbow room and to not be sore every morning. We also ordered new living room furniture. Our current couch is down which is really nice, but also way too soft. We got a chaise+ottoman sectional that is on the firm side so again I am hoping it's better for my hips and back. Youth is wasted on the young - getting old sucks!

Accountability - last night was not great, but the scale was down a 1.5 so I'll take it and not chance that again.

QOTD - It was on my mind for YEARS - too many to count but honestly I was too scared. My sister talked me into going to the intro seminar and I was sold. Nine months later I had my RNY.

2 years, 6 months

b- coffee x 3, L&F yogurt

l- staff pot luck - there are good protein and veg options

d-chicken and green beans

s - depends on how I do at lunch!

Have a great day

Yay for a new bed! Sleep well tonight.