2 days until surgery

Yes, I see my surgeon tomorrow morning. I am having real problems with my mood but no-one mentioned the hormone dump. I'll look up some information on it. Thank-you so much for the reply. Means a lot.

I hope you get some relief. After any major surgery your body goes through a lot of healing. Talk with your surgeon for sure.

This forum and the support it offers is just what I need. Thank you everyone!

The hormone release is very real and a sign that your body is beginning to burn fat as many hormones are stored there. Your body should catch up and even itself out but do mention it and any deep depression to your doctor. Most but not all programs mention this now. Even though it's been over 6 years I remember quite well those days and feeling very unlike myself. I promise it gets better though and soon you'll be SO glad you had surgery. Just hang in there!

Thank you for sharing your amazing story and truthfulness. I am going into this with full dedication of a lifetime change. I hope I'm strong enough to endure the long term, but know if I begin to have problems to reach out for help. I'm thankful I have complete support and encouragement at home. That will help. I do need to find a therapist who is familiar with EDs.

The hours are passing..... it will be Friday before I know it. Happy Birthday to me!

Good luck. And seriously have a good time. I was just joking with everyone and it really made me feel relaxed. Remember, they do this a lot, I mean a lot, a lot. So trust in them.

Regarding my story - I know I can screw this up. I can pretty much eat anything. Though some things do make me feel queasy, so that is good feedback. Like yesterday, I ate a caramel dark chocolate covered candy. It didn't sit well. But so many things don't cause problems. So I know that I have to not fall back on my previous loss or progress or go on autopilot. I have a hard cap alarm. If I cross 190 for any reason, it triggers an alarm and strict CAMAW protocol. I momentarily crossed that threshold when I got home from vacation. I was 190.2 - I knew it was from flying and all the travel food.... and I was right. I was 187 the next day and 185.5 the day after that. However, I've been really good since I got back - except for that chocolate last night. So not perfect. Just keep looking to what is new and different in your life after surgery and don't bury your head in the sand and hope you can stay the course. Build in checks and balances. My trainer takes no excuses. I was up 3 when I got to her scale and while she was glad it was not the 7 I brought home. She read me the riot act all session. She's a clean eater. She hates my protein shakes or bars because of the splenda. That strict!

I was lucky the therapist was the guy I picked randomly from the approved list given to me by the surgeon. There were 20 names on the list. I just connected with this guy.

any of my steps of accountability would work, but all together it is mind numbing. I can't hide. I'm accountable all around me. I have so much that my wife never says a thing. She knows that my team will take care of any issues. That gives me confidence I won't regain and not something that is just kidding myself. I'm glad I did that, so do as much as you can right away. Don't wait. Use the honeymoon to build your team.

Again - have fun and enjoy yourself. I'm glad I have the memories I do of that day. The pain is fleeting, but the real benefits will build very quickly and can last a long time. Good luck.