What's on your Tuesday Menu?

Ugh, me too!!

morning everyone!

I am having a hard time adjusting to the time change...not so much the actual time but moreso the early sunset and the darkness. I always feel so unmotivated when it gets dark out so early- like the day is over and mentally I just feel like shutting down. it's really difficult to talk myself into doing much of anything after I get home from work besides making dinner and getting ready for bed. a friend of mine suggested trying a tanning bed once in a while during the winter to trick my mind and body into thinking I am exposed to more sunlight-- I do tend to get some seasonal depression so I might try it at some point.

QOTD: I talk to myself a lot in the car. Mostly about things I need to do, or things I want to say to someone that I wouldn't actually ever say for one reason or another. It's kind of therapeutic to actually say them out loud LOL.

B: coffee w/sf pumpkin spice creamer/ 1/2c cottage cheese and no sugar added mixed fruit cup
L: leftover reuben slaw again
S: L&F greek yogurt
D: not sure- DH is cooking tonight, maybe chicken crust pizza?

have a fabulous day all!

I decided to skip a class this afternoon since it didn't really apply to me anyway, just another class for my trainees. I just needed some time to sit at my desk, be sure that I'm caught up, have another cup of coffee and breath a little. Things have been really crazy at work and at home and I'm not coping particularly well. DW isn't doing well and is now applying for long-term disability and being referred to the area's top dementia specialist for experimental treatment because the normal treatments aren't helping. I'm struggling to stay patient, calm and to take care of myself in the midst of it all. By the time I get home from work, I just want to crawl in bed and put my head under the pillow...no motivation to exercise. So this morning I just went to work in my exercise gear and went straight to the gym and ran hard on the treadmill. It really helped me to get going on the right foot this morning. I may try doing it 2-3 days a week since lunchtime is even getting hard to take more than a short break.

QOTD: yes, I talk to myself all the time, especially when I exercise. I challenge myself, cheer to push a little harder, faster and further. I also remind myself to take a deep breath and stay calm alot. I don't find confrontation to be useful alot of times, so I validate myself and try to let things go.

Accountability: Struggling to take in more than lots of coffee and small meals. I keep pulling myself back on track but it is certainly a work in progress!

B1: coffee & 1 oz ham

B2: turkey sausage wake-up wrap

S: 5 almonds, protein shake

L: 2 oz turkey breast, baby carrots

S: Buddig's beef packet

D: not sure...depends how long I have to stand in line to vote

Exercise: ran 3 miles this morning, walk at lunch

You have so much on your plate, I'm sorry that this time is so stressful. Sending you what good vibes i can, and my hope that your DW's condition will improve with the experimental treatment. Glad you were able to run this morning! You are so sensitive to and responsive to good exercise as a mechanism for de-stressing. Especially at this time I hope you are able to schedule it in - it's good medicine.

Hello my RnY friends! Happy Election Day!

It's a softly wet day here on the island, but the sky is bright white, so it isn't gloomy. Mail-in voters, make sure your ballots are postmarked by today, or into the ballot box before voting ends in your state this evening! I do miss actually going into a school, a YMCA, a church hall or a fire station to VOTE in person, but at least I got to make my choices part of the tally!

The scale is at 141.2 this morning! It's been such a long time since I was here! For a few weeks there (around a month!), during which time I really was compliant, the scale was stagnant, or hovering in the mid-to-high 140s. It spiked up a couple of times, very frustrating, even spiking back up to 150, despite careful measuring and intake. I actually was wondering if that was it, the end of losing, if I had reached the end of the line of my body's natural willingness or ability to healthily lose. But persistence worked eventually! I think for the sake of my sense of accomplishment, I will make being 140# be my second goal, even though I haven't yet had a DEXA scan. Or, wait, should it be 139 or 137#? I do really like the sound of 137. Gah!! I'm really not normally particularly indecisive! Either way, I will continue to lose a bit, into the 130s somewhere, not because I feel I am really carrying too much weight, but just for insurance, to protect my loss. Then depending on the results of my scan later this month, I will either make a new goal and drop more, or formally segue over into maintenance. Likely the later.

Apologies if I'm making anyone roll their eyes as my posts on this topic are so repetitive. I know I'm voicing the same things over and over. It's just where my head is right now, and it helps me to share these things with all of you, even if I do so over and over! I ask your kind forbearance with my chat about my goals and weight.

QOTD: Yes, constantly! And I constantly talk to my cats, too. I talk when driving as well, carrying on imaginary conversations I should have had or hope to have, perfecting my choice of words, timing, and delivery. This has been made easier by the era of cell phones - no longer do I look insane when talking to myself at a red light, as other drivers just assume I'm on the phone! I also sing when I'm the car alone, and make up all sorts of melodies and lyrics. Sometimes I talk to a choice politician or two and give them a piece of my mind, not that they hear or care one bit - that much has been made abundantly clear! VOTE, my friends!

First: great mugs of tea, 4 of them!

B: eggs

L: chicken

D: smoked oysters

S: yogurt

Have a wonderful day today, my civic-minded pouch peeps!

No eye roll from me...I think this is what most of us are here for. We "get" each other.

Thank you kindly, Kelly! I appreciate that very much!

Haha, no eye rolls here either! I totally get it and I'm with you!! I've been through it in all stages of my journey. It does help to share - so share away! Who else will understand like we do?