Body dismorphia

I think it's the dress and clunky running shoes that make you look larger than you expected. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I think you should stay away from looze, non-structured clothing for awhile so you can reset your mental image of yourself. Good luck!

I tend to agree with you. It certainly isn't the slimming dress and heels that I wear to the office. It was my vacay day outfit that I chose because it doesn't wrinkle and has pockets! ;) I was just really surprised about my extreme reaction to the pictures though...

I have to have pockets!

Yes, pockets are VERY good!

I don't have any helpful hints but I totally can relate. Mine has more to do with gaining a bit back and feeling like crap about myself and thinking I'm a failure because I can't wear my size 2 skinny jeans anymore because now I have a butt and thighs.

I know you've talked about that and I know what you mean. I have very muscular calves and thighs (well the thighs do have a fair amount of loose skin too!). I would have trouble wearing really skinny jeans because I have alot of muscles. Logically, I want to be strong and fit but there is also a part of me that struggles with not being able to wear the smallest size possible! After 30 years of being MO/SMO, there is a part of me that feels pretty vain.

yes it is hard- I look back at my pics at 118 pounds and I was HAPPY being super super tiny.

Yes, i realize i was probably underweight but I felt invincible and awesome.

now it is harder because im bigger. and my loose skin is way more evident now.

Muscle on top, sagging skin below...

With your strength and small size I bet you are close to being able to do pull-ups if you can't already.

I can relate Janet. I work out religiously and am stronger and have more muscle than I have ever had. I am wearing the same size clothes since my lowest weight and yet I am not happy when I look at photos. I keep asking myself, do you really want to look as gaunt as I did initially. The answer is no. Yet I struggle. I think I tend to look like a person that is more healthy with no signs that I had wls. It is a struggle my friend, good luck getting to the happy place where you are happy and satisfied...